[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 3.27.06

[JERRY LANE]

Nebadonia—March 27, 2006

Marin TM Group—Mill  Valley, California—U.S.A.

NEBADONIA—T/R-JL

(What stillness encompasses)
(How faith becomes experience)
(Spiritual Renaissance)
(Deja-vu—again)
(The limits of natural law)
(The pace of your life)
(The experience of timelessness)
(The way to greater life)

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,    Once again we welcome You with open arms 
and open hearts and open minds, as You have taught us how to do--how to 
stand naked before our Celestial Family and be comfortable, realizing this 
is our home.  We’ve especially welcomed your lessons and assurance on the 
nature of our souls, the spiritual records of our lives authored by the 
presence of God himself in our minds.  And so we know these souls of ours 
are so much more enormous than what we think of simply as our memories.  For 
these truths of our very nature, we are so thankful.  Amen.

(What stillness encompasses)

Good evening, boys, this is your mother, Nebadonia.  I’m always so glad to 
be with you.  I notice your lively conversations on spiritual matters before 
we begin have the seemingly paradoxical effect of settling you down, and so 
it pays to broaden your notions of what stillness encompasses.  It is why We 
have so often mentioned that to be at peace deep within yourselves, to have 
this home base of spiritual reality from which you operate, is not only 
consistent with the most vigorous activities of body and mind, but augments 
the clarity with which you can not only think, but do things.  It’s so 
rewarding for Michael and I to have you realize this in your day to day 
lives, in how you focus on your activities, your work, your relationships 
with all your friends and fellows.  Because isn’t this the purpose of 
spirit?

As Michael reminded you last week, to have life and have it more abundantly, 
means transforming your everyday lives into something exciting and 
reflective of a growing enthusiasm for all the seemingly mundane facts.  
This is that marvelous transforming the everyday prose of your life into 
poetry.  With it comes an increase of energy because you open yourselves to 
welcoming the feedback you get from your so-called nitty-gritty--the hard, 
undeniable aspects of your life.  As you welcome this feedback beyond any 
notions of negative reaction, beyond judgments this way, you are enabled to 
realize and transcend many kinds of denial you may have previously had, 
based on these cultural, or family, or social judgments.

This is the way you evolve.  This is the way you open yourself to facets of 
reality that were always there just waiting for you to notice them.  Isn’t 
this the glory of understanding?  Isn’t this the purpose of understanding?  
Isn’t this a greater reflection of My Mind/Spirit Adjutants of Knowledge and 
Understanding?--first to perceive this depth in your everyday lives, then 
welcome the reward it gives you for being open?  This is the immediate 
assurance that faith works.  As you extend yourself out into new territory 
of perception and experience by your faith, you are able to realize these 
new realms in a way that is so immediate, faith is no longer required; it 
moves forward again.

As an extension of faith becomes fact, these physical facts lead to ever 
greater mental meanings and relationships, and you are able to perceive and 
enjoy the value of spirit suffusing all these dimensions.  You understand 
how, once you acquire this new territory, your reassurance in the value of 
faith and the purposes of faith allows you to reach out and extend yourself 
once again to encompass more, to wonder what else might be out there.

(How faith becomes experience)

Your delight in this is Our delight.  Your extension of faith, your 
encompassing greater realms of reality is also Ours.  As you live in Us and 
in our Father, so We and our Father enjoy a greater life through you.  This 
is your gift to us, My children, and as you open yourselves more and more to 
your vast Celestial Family, your life is your gift to Them as well.  We 
marvel at these physical/material lives you are living, especially the 
unique challenges you face on Urantia because of its very tumultuous past.  
It has departed so far from the normal trend of planetary evolution that has 
been the course for literally millions of inhabited worlds around you.  We 
too can thrill to the courage you show in keeping the faith--keeping your 
faith in Us and our Father, keeping your faith in yourselves and, most 
trying at times for you, keeping your faith in each other.

You call this, very rightfully, giving each other the benefit of the doubt.  
When you are uncertain as to another’s intentions, you exercise the courage 
it takes to place yourself in your fellow human being’s hands, knowing 
deeply within you this extension of trust, this extension of love can 
literally create the chance for a good outcome which would not be there if 
doubt overwhelmed you.

This is the deep realization that people are, to a large degree, what you 
make of them; and this takes pure, raw nerve.  This is assuming the best, 
crediting people with a maturity that they may have only in potential until 
you come along and put yourself in their hands.  This is especially critical 
with your children, or with those who are less mature than you--that you 
trust them, that you give them power, even as Michael and I, and our Father 
encourage you to develop your own power for good.  So you encourage those 
who may be less mature than you to use their power for good.  Encourage them 
to feel for the greater context of everyone concerned in a situation.  For 
this is how you escape the limits of identifying solely with your own 
perception of yourself, your egos.

This is the way the world will transform.  It is the only way it will 
transform, yet it is the only way needed.  This is that better future, that 
more wonderful world you all look towards.  It is certainly not only 
material. As We have pointed out, all throughout human history you’ve had 
not only enough food and shelter to sustain life, you’ve had empires come 
and go, built walls that can be seen from outer space, even evolved a 
material science that got you standing on the moon.  Yet in spite of this 
material wealth the human race as a whole has always enjoyed--even to the 
point where some primitive societies sought ways of appeasing the gods by 
deliberately destroying vast amounts of material wealth--still after all 
these years there are people dying of starvation and exposure.

(Spiritual Renaissance)

This was the basic flaw in the study of dialectical materialism.  Yes, the 
material aspect of your lives is important, and with some folks critical. 
Yet it has always been overshadowed by the mental meanings and the spiritual 
values of whatever culture and society found itself in its own unique 
historical situation.  This is why We look for a Spiritual Renaissance, a 
wonderful rebirth of wonder and value.  We are delighted to experience, 
Michael and I, it is well underway.  So keep the faith, My children, even as 
you are enjoying the fruits of your labors and your faith so far.  Dedicate 
yourself to this ongoing planetary evolution and be not afraid to let your 
faith go out ahead, ever pointing the way.  If you have any questions or 
comments this evening, let’s see what we can do with them.

Student:  Mother, thank You for the support You and Michael have given me 
over the past week and a half or so, when I was with my friend who had an 
operation.  I appreciate the support and the love and the understanding.  
The question I have is one I’ve asked before, and I still don’t quite 
understand what’s going on.

>From time to time I have this feeling I’ve been to a place before, only for 
a few seconds.  But I’ve never been there before, yet I feel I have; and I 
wonder what is this phenomenon?

(Deja-vu—again)

NEBADONIA:  Yes, C, I remember well our discussions before, not only on 
deja-vu, which means to see-again--being in a new situation yet feeling 
you’ve been there before, and are seeing it again; I even mentioned the 
exact opposite, jamais-vu, or never-seen--in which you are in a very 
familiar situation, and yet are seeing it as if you’ve never seen it before, 
as if you are seeing it for the first time.  I mentioned both of these 
experiences have such a delightful charm to them, and I think this is 
because they get you to wondering, and this wondering itself augments the 
spiritual dimension or evaluation with which you embrace reality.

Just the fact this is so very startling calls your attention to the amount 
you find yourself in your exterior world.  All of a sudden something seems 
to be happening again--you have a quality of recognition as if you know what 
someone is going to say before they say it.  You perceive this as if it is 
happening outside you, yet at the same time you know inside this is a new 
situation.  Because this is a temporary splitting or duality of 
consciousness, you are momentarily aware of your own process of recognition.

We’ve pointed out that you’re constantly recognizing, re-cognizing your 
reality by a process of comparing it to everything you’ve experienced 
before.  This is so instantaneous, so one-thousandth of a second at a time, 
you only notice it when it malfunctions. We gave the example of a cat lover 
seeing a cat out in an open field, whereupon at a second glance they see 
it’s just an odd arrangement of sticks and weeds.

This process of your mind is so instantaneous you’re rarely aware of 
it--except when your mind is temporarily acting on two parallel levels and 
you become aware of your own recognizing.  Then in a new situation it seems 
as if you are recognizing something that happened before.  Yet the charm of 
it is, you simultaneously know this really is a new situation.  The moment 
you notice this is happening, the moment your mind, in a sense, realizes it 
is malfunctioning, it stops.  You swing back immediately into proper 
functioning in which this enormous process of recognition becomes, once 
again, unconscious.

You can think: well, it would be nice to have this continue so I could 
actually test it to see if this person is going to say exactly what I think 
they’re going to.  But the very fact it does not persist means it is just a 
temporary, however curious, illusion.

Student: I have had times when my mind is a little quiet, that I know what a 
person is going to say, and they usually say pretty close to what I’m 
thinking they are going to say.  Not very often, but often enough to 
remember.  The other part is, I don’t quite understand what You’re saying 
again, but I’ll give it some thought.  I’ve also been in places I’ve never 
been before, and for a few seconds, sometimes not all the time, just every 
once a while, I have this strange feeling I’ve been here before.  And I’ve 
never been there before.  Is that what You’re talking about with respect to 
the mind malfunctioning, or the illusion?

NEBADONIA:  Yes.  Even in a new situation, let’s say a building you’ve never 
gone into before, your mind obviously has to recognize walls, ceilings, 
windows, doors, in order for you to experience these exterior objects.  If 
your mind is operating on two levels, you temporarily become conscious of 
this unconscious process; you are simultaneously experiencing your reality 
and your own ability to recognize it, and so it seems as if you’ve been 
there before.

Student: Ah, I see.

NEBADONIA:  This normally unconscious process is only for a few moments 
separate and conscious, because as soon as you experience: Well, I’m 
recognizing this, I must have been here before--very much like other visual 
illusions, your mind realizes what it’s doing and stops the illusion 
instantly.  It’s the mind’s ability to correct itself like this that has 
helped lead evolution through these millions of years.  Persisting illusions 
can be fatal, especially now in your highly mechanical society.

Also consider that so many times when you know what a person is going to 
say, you are just in the presence of a very repetitious person. (laughter)  
Beyond this, you often know how each other think, not necessarily through 
some means of telepathy, but just being able to just correctly anticipate 
how another person will react.  Again, I’m sorry to deprive your charming 
moments of any great spiritual significance, but these are just ways your 
mind corrects itself when it is temporarily operating, shall we say, 
abnormally.

Student: I’m very much willing to give up the illusion for the reality.  I 
was just wondering if this consciousness and this anticipation that You 
mentioned is worth developing, or it is just part of the illusion?

NEBADONIA:  Consciousness is definitely worth developing, My son, and it is 
exactly what We have been calling in Our lessons, being open.  The more open 
you are to stepping outside your bubble of familiarity, the more you will 
encounter and begin to experience that which cannot be anticipated.  We’ve 
pointed out this is a whole half of your reality, something new constantly 
bursting into existence by way of God’s pure creativity.  Every moment is 
fresh and new and only in the more cyclical aspects of day and night, the 
coming and going of seasons, and so forth, is reality repeating itself.

(The limits of natural law)

Consider for a moment that all of what you call natural law, from the nigh 
infinite cosmos all the way down into the infinitesimal, all this natural 
law you have struggled so hard for so long to discover and share with each 
other, this all pertains to the continuity of reality, that which does 
repeat itself and can be counted upon.  But every moment there is, as you 
say--coming down, an aspect of reality that has never happened before, and 
is unique to each moment.  This too is happening.  It disturbs some people 
to perceive it.  It shakes up their notions of having a closed loop around 
reality itself.  For these folks especially, God has a few surprises in 
store, if you will, to save them from themselves.  We all are blessed He has 
a sense of humor.

Student:  Thank You, Mother, it makes a great deal more sense this time. I 
look forward to becoming more conscious of reality.  My bubble of 
familiarity isn’t comfortable any more, but it’s still there.

NEBADONIA:  My son, I honor the courage it takes for you to welcome the 
discomfort, trusting this is the door to greater life.  So be in My love, 
and rest deeply in Michael’s peace.

Student:  Yes, Mother, a mantra has been going through my head the past 
couple of weeks when there’s been so many changes in my life, and it kind-of 
helps me get through what I’m going through.  I say these words to my 
daughter, and that is: my life is unfolding at its own pace--naturally and 
perfectly—as things are shifting in my life.  It’s interesting to note the 
differences in my place.  It’s quite light, not only in the exterior places, 
but in myself.  My daughter is very happy.  So I’ve just been experiencing 
all the different emotions and feelings of what’s transpired, at the same 
time being available to (Name) to help her in any way I can, and see what 
happens.  But I keep saying to myself, because there’s so much to do, that 
things are unfolding naturally and perfectly and harmoniously.  I have faith 
my soul is being nurtured and awakened to its own expression.  It’s only a 
matter of time before I can experience my own fullness.  I guess this is 
what You were talking about, about growing in faith, and then going even 
beyond that.

(The pace of your life)

NEBADONIA:  I’m delighted that you are able to feel within yourself this 
process of how your faith transforms into real fact and meaning, for this 
how you know it is working.  This is that transformation from belief into 
actual experience.  The critical thing here, that you put your finger on, is 
the whole concept and understanding of pace, or the rate at which things 
happen.  To feel yourself being driven along by exterior forces is probably 
the most common source of stress among folks in your modern society.

It was a mixed blessing when those town halls or churches, centuries ago, 
started chiming out the hours of the day.  On the one hand it enabled the 
whole community to get in sync, long before pocket watches or wrist watches, 
and organize their activities such as had never been possible before.  But 
then as the centuries passed and almost everyone became harnessed to this 
mechanically delineated time, for so many there was an attendant loss of 
feeling biological time—the time measured by the beating of your heart, the 
coming and going of your breath; the time measured by your own personal 
life’s goals and ambitions and successes.  So it is important that We offer 
this as a useful tool in your stillness, just to initially watch your breath 
for awhile, see if your can delicately just notice your breath without 
affecting it—which you can do.  Then as you settle down even more, tune in 
to your heart beating.  Re-establish your life in a very single-knit way 
with your biological sequences.  One breath follows another: one heartbeat 
follows another.  You can at least temporarily detach yourself from the 
inexorable ticking of the clock.  Take a break from this mechanically 
precise chopping up your biological moments into minutes and seconds.  
Re-evaluate the usefulness of this way of measuring time so you can make 
conscious decisions as to how much you want to plug into it, now you’ve 
detached yourself from it.  In other words, go along with this mechanical 
time only insofar as it really suits your needs—to organize your life, to 
space your work and your leisure, to meet folks.  Then throw the rest away.  
Throw away the incessant, needling demand that society can instill in you, 
those feelings of never having enough time, of being driven along by a 
mercilessly impersonal device that is literally killing so many folks with 
the stress it induces.  So I congratulate you on welcoming this inner 
mantra, feeling its value, and holding it close to your heart through this 
time of transition.  For though it speeds up and slows down, all your life 
is a transition.  You want to stay close to the organic center.

Student:  There is always home base. (heavy sigh)  I remember speaking with 
J and C last time, after Michael spoke with us, about how I feel comforted 
by the impermanence of things, how sometimes when I look around, everything 
looks like a dream state; but I know things are always changing.  Like this 
group some day will not be a group any more; this apartment will not be, or 
someone else will be living in it.  Things are always changing.  My daughter 
will one day be forty, then sixty, a hundred years old.  I’ll be elsewhere.  
But there’s always home base.  For me there is a comfort in knowing that I 
can puncture that bubble of familiarity we talk about, and not hold on, or 
become too attached to the external and the material--if at all possible.

NEBADONIA:  This is the blessing that relies on a lot of trust and faith 
that this changing reality is truly home.  If you just get over some 
well-meant but illusory cultural conditioning based on the simple immaturity 
of your predecessors--to expect everything to be unchanging and permanent, 
you discover what a blessing it is that God’s creativity is so great, every 
moment can be new.  Eternity is not some endlessly repeating cycle in terms 
of all the personal experience of the all the personal beings who exist.  
Isn’t it nice to see this?

Student:  There are even times where I feel timeless, that there is no past 
or future, just here, and that’s all that matters.

(The experience of timelessness)

NEBADONIA:  There, My son, you are touching, however briefly, on the essence 
of your personality.  It is at these rare moments your personality can 
realize its true nature outside of time and space, and for a few moments it 
is as if you were God himself at the very center of creation, perfectly 
still, watching it all swirl around an eternal moment.  This is really being 
home!  It’s even a blessing not to have to cling to these moments, but just 
let them be, and ever so lightly step back into time again.

Student:  Is this where Jesus, and some of the ascendant masters dwell from 
though?  Is this where they are 24/7?  Or do they fluctuate?

NEBADONIA:  Well, as Michael invited you to realize last time: all of the 
above.  All personality exists outside of change.  All personality is part 
of what We call the personality circuit of God; and yet there truly is 
something happening here.  The universe is not an illusion.  Matter and 
energy are also created by God, and are more than just relatively true.  So 
you are your transcendent personality, yet your personality was created an 
experiential being for the very purpose of experiencing your unique life.  
Though you may feel yourself coming and going in your perceptions of 
reality, your openness to what is, the presence of God that lives within you 
is absolute, without limit of dimension.  This is truly the presence of God, 
and you have the ultimate gift—your life—that you give to this Father 
Fragment so that the two of you create your soul, a possession you both 
share, a reality that will lead you to becoming one some day.  This is the 
unfathomable potential you have, My son--that you will join with your Father 
Fragment, with this presence of God, and become a transformed eternal being. 
  When you experience these moments of timelessness, these are moments when 
you are, in a sense, anticipating that union, and briefly touching the 
eternal.

Student:  This is the kingdom of heaven… (long pause, much sighing…)  Thank 
You.

NEBADONIA:  You are very welcome.   You are not able to live in bliss--quite 
yet…

Student:  Oh why not! (laughter)

NEBADONIA:  ...but isn’t it reassuring to touch upon it from time to time.  
As to why not, this is another matter of faith, My son, that too much of 
it—as you know it—would not be good for you at all.  You still have many 
adventures to experience, and the very nature of them is to let go the 
assurance that you know now, and let the unknown swell forth, even though it 
may threaten to overwhelm you.  This is—true—adventure, in which you risk 
everything.

Student:  Hmmm…  What is…everything?

NEBADONIA:  This is what you have yet to encounter.  This is what it takes 
eternity to discover.

Student:  But if it is to return home, to be at one with the Father, there 
is no risk in that.  Right?

(The way to greater life)

NEBADONIA:  But you must first leave home in order to rediscover it.  Home 
in this sense is what you have known, and what you know momentarily, or 
moment to moment—now.  But there is an unfathomable universe out there yet 
to embrace, and here you are, still a tadpole, swimming around in the first 
phase of your life.   This is just to say: it is a big universe, My son, 
that you are headed for. (much laughter) This is giving up all you know for 
greater knowing, giving up the life you have for greater life.  And to deny 
it is a bit scary would be to miss the essence of it—at times.  This is why 
it takes courage.  This is the value, then, of courage.

Student:  I understand…  I do understand.  Coupled with that fear is the 
kindness, and knowing what I alluded to earlier—the fullness of my soul.

NEBADONIA:  So rest in My love, My son.  Treasure home base when you are in 
it, but take care not to cling to even it.  Let it go ever so lightly, and 
step off again. (long pause…)

What a wonderful space this is!  And we create it for each other.  It is a 
marvelously alive pure presence.  This is where we can not only say within 
ourselves, but feel: Thank You, Father, for being with us.  Thank You--for 
helping us find You, one more time.  Be in My love.  Good Evening.


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