Pocatello Transcript 4-3-98

[Bill Kelly]

April 3, 1998

Business
Sharing and Prayer

Aaron:  My friends, I am Aaron.  It is my pleasure to step forward this
evening and begin our communication with you.  As we have established here,
you are indeed in the midst of fulfilling your destiny.  Regardless of how
you perceive this statement, we do reiterate to you that it is so.  This
does not necessarily mean that you are to fulfill any highly-visible roles
nor does it mean that you have an air of specialness about you that any
other child of God is lacking.  More so does this relate to your willingness
to progress into that which is most beneficial to your spiritual development
and actualization.  If you perceive those things which you have either
undertaken or are in the midst of undertaking you will see that various
situations offer the opportunity for enhancement, either for yourself or for
another.  In no small way has our response to your willingness been for
these very diverse yet potentially fruitful occurrences.  

We have been hesitant to create roles for individuals.  More so have we been
in the process of enhancing those roles you are already have in life.  Free
will choice requires your dedication to a cause out of self will choice, and
for these reasons are we limited in trying to create you to be anything
other than that which you are in potential.  In rising to the challenge of
fulfilling your destiny, you have accepted the task of becoming personally
attuned to the spirit that resides within you.  We have been dedicated to
growth, to the recognition of value and its import in your existence.  And
you have on various levels displayed a willingness to share that value in
the lives you now lead.  This has been our desire, and you have fulfilled
the challenge of existing as a mortal with Fifth Epochal awareness in a
world that still languishes with confused conceptions of various epochs of
trial, partially revealed insight, struggle, failures and default.  The
perpetuation of the Fifth Epochal Revelation requires mortals with this new
insight into living.  

If you have not discerned as yet the purpose of the Fifth Epochal
Revelation, it is to reveal to the world God-conscious citizens in
relationship to the universe and to one another in such a manner that
reflects the divine in attitude, in relationship, and in portrayal much as
did Master Michael in his individual existence as a mortal being.  The Fifth
Epochal Revelation has not ceased nor is it only confined to the pages of a
book.  It is an ongoing revealing to the world of certain insights which
will draw human beings closer to the realities that should have been readily
available to them already - so that the world may come into a state of
Correction such that the state of affairs of this planet can more gradually
and progressively ease into a normal state of functioning on a high road
toward planetary enlightenment in the era of Light and Life.  You have risen
to the challenge of fulfilling your destiny in that you have accepted that
you are part of this procedure and this family awareness and that you have
the capability to both learn and impart insight that has been afforded to
you through this process.  And for this we are grateful, honored, and
humbled to serve with you my friends.  I now step back.  Thank you for your
time this evening.  I will remain present if there are any questions.

Minearisa (Bill):  Greetings, children.  This is Minearisa, your instructor
in residence here to congratulate you on your most excellent participatory
exercise of the very exercise I wished you to undertake.  I realize that
without transcripts to remind you and with the often lateness of the hour
and the weariness of body, that our assignments can slip away from
consciousness.  I believe that it would be a transformative experience for
you should you, on your own, undertake to reread past lessons.  Recall the
excitement that you experienced a year ago when you reviewed a few months'
worth of lessons and were amazed to find the intricacies of thought and
delicacies of nuance which found their expression on the printed page.  When
things go past the auditory centers, especially when we speak at a slow rate
so that short-term memory is taxed to the limit, it is often true that our
laborious speeches appeal more to the eyes than to the ears.  I am not
making this an assignment.  I am making it a strong suggestion.  Yes, it was
mentioned by your discussion this evening, but that does not make it a bad
idea, and therefore I do support it wholeheartedly.  

Isaac is aware that Daniel forecast an unusual evening to occur.  And this
was not due to Daniel having foreknowledge or omniscience, for he does not
possess those qualities any more than I do.  But it was the result of a
conference that we hold on a regular basis akin to what you would call staff
meetings where we pool our information and our intimate knowledge of each of
you that comes from Thought Adjuster sharing and angelic communication,
sometimes midwayer information, and we attempt to assay what the
probabilities of the future in terms of interactional potential might be.
It was our opinion several days ago that something unusual and satisfying
would occur this evening so that we are not entirely surprised by your
prodigious efforts and satisfying experience.  But in all modesty I must say
to you that we were surprised at the intensity of your intimacy and are very
heartened to see how well a diversity of ideas were mixed into this grand
stew (for lack of a better word) of cognition, emotion, intention, and
spiritual unity to produce the remarkable conversation that you experienced
this evening.  

Yes, I would add to this along the lines of Aaron's commentary that we are
not suggesting some sort of elitism for this Pocatello group.  We are not
suggesting you have a specialness that sets you apart from the others.  We
are merely and yet profoundly stating that your progress at times is
breathtaking.  Much has been discussed and stated regarding the progress of
the Correcting Time, and many of you including this TR has filtered these
statements through a thick mesh of skepticism.  At times you have wondered
if these assertions of progress were blatant fabrications of the minds of
the TRs involved.  My good friends, your doubts amuse us.  Look around you.
Behold the world is in the process of transformation.  The foundations are
shaking, the old structures are crumbling, the spiritual pressure is intense
and increasing all the time.  Nevertheless, we must wait upon human free
will choice.  Well, I believe I have said enough to make this TR fully
uncomfortable with having uttered these words.  And out of due respect for
him and his concern that we are tooting our own horns, I will allow now our
esteemed teacher Daniel to have his turn.  One moment please.

Daniel (Cathy):  Greetings, my friends, my colleagues.  This is Daniel with
one brief request - that you honor my assignment this week to think about
how you feel - and when I say "how you feel" I mean how you feel down here
(TR points at stomach) - when we say you are well along on your spiritual
journey.  Please analyze the thoughts and emotions that come up for you when
you think about that and try to discern the source, if you can, of any
negative feelings that arise.  And then try to discern the source of any
positive feelings that arise, for this will be most enlightening for you.
Are there any questions this evening?

Steve:  I've got one for you, Daniel.  I met with an individual for lunch
the other day named Ralph.  He said he had read the book, and after
listening to him talk at lunch, he has mentioned that he'd like to come to
these meetings.  After talking with him it sounds like he's already been to
these meetings, and I was just wondering if you have any knowledge of this
individual because it was pretty intense and pretty interesting.  I was just
wondering if it would be okay for him to come to one of the meetings.

Daniel (Cathy):  This is Daniel.  Ralph is indeed known to me peripherally
and his presence would be most welcome.  

Steve:  Thank you.

Minearisa (Bill):  This is Minearisa again.  Steven, rely on your inner
guidance to give you the right words and opportunity to extend our most
hearty invitation to your friend.  Realize that he is walking through doors
just as you did and as you all have done - doors of choice and doors that
lead to spiritual growth.  We truly do look forward to the presence of this
person.

Steve:  Thank you.

Minearisa (Bill):  Other questions or comments?

BobD:  Well, I was thinking about assumptions and risking and the lesson
that I haven't read yet but just the concepts we've discussed this evening,
and kind of been working it in my mind.  I try to understand some of my
limitations in relation to other people and I realize that there are certain
types of behavior, whether well-intended that throw me out of balance in how
I relate to other people.  One question that comes to my mind is that I have
a hard time dealing when something is out of my control, which is about 90%
of my life, but more directly.  Help me to gain perspective when you
recognize misperceptions or maybe just when you see perceptions going on in
somebody's behavior, mind, regarding your interacting with another person.
My neediness and codependency tends to flare up when I see a
miscommunication going on, and it seems like no matter how hard I try I seem
to almost make it worse because after I'm thrown out of balance, I don't act
or react calmly.  It becomes more erratic, jerky, almost like a frightened
child trying to regain stability.  So I guess if one of the teachers could
give any insight how I can maintain balance and focus during these times of
interaction...

Aaron (Cathy):  This is Aaron.  One minor correction.  One hundred percent
of your life is out of your control.  (laughter)

BobD:  I hope that was a broad philosophical point and not a directed
statement.  (more laughter)

Aaron (Cathy):  You have accomplished the first step, my friend, in
recognizing and labeling those situations which cause you discomfort.  It is
important for you to continue this process so that you can see it coming
from a distance, because once you are in the midst it is very difficult to
regain the level of control with which you feel comfortable.  In the
meantime it might be advisable to withdraw from situations which cause you
great anxiety.  You can be totally honest with the other person and say
something like, "I am feeling anxious and I don't know exactly how to
respond in this situation and I need time to think about it and sort it out
in my mind."  At that point you can take it to the quiet and come back with
a renewed perspective.  

Daniel (Bill):  This is Daniel.  I would add a few comments to those of
Aaron.  One of the tasks of intellectual growth and spiritual growth is to
move from broad generalization to more specific discrimination.  It is the
innate biological reality of the human organism as well as subhuman animal
species to be quickly programmed from the experiences of earliest childhood
to reach automatic conclusions in order to avoid danger and to survive.
These nervous system learnings are preconscious and are the result of your
immediate environment as a newborn and growing child with those caregivers
who surround you.   As you grow older and your range of interactions
increase, always will there be triggered the automatic reactions of your
earliest learning which will be mostly felt as emotions of fear, of anxiety
and a desire to fight or flee.  This reality is inescapable to all humans,
and can only be modified by the persistent relearning, both the intellectual
and emotional discrimination which an enlarging picture of the totality of
everything can give you.  

My young friend, you are in the process of making these discriminations in
your everyday life.  So therefore I am saying to you, "don't sweat it as
much as you do."  That does not mean it is not a difficult problem, for it
is for all of you, to move from the automatic responses of your earliest
responses into the diversity that broadens and enlarges in your experiences
with others.  This mortal life is but the very beginning of the incredible
experience of becoming part of the Supreme and interacting with all other
parts.  As Aaron suggested what you need to do is, number one, lighten up on
yourself and stop feeling like you are supposed to be a thousand years old
before you reach the age of 35.  Secondly, avoid overly-frightening
situations when you can't control it, as was stated.  Third, go to your
quiet time for your succor and nourishment.  And fourth, continue to share
these things with us and with your friends.  You do very well, Simeon my friend.

BobD:  Thank you for your insight.  That makes total sense.  I've been
coming to the conclusion that it's not so much the situation itself, it's
the recognition that I'm taken out of balance so easily that bothers me.
And yet I realize I'm probably trying too hard to be too perfect right now.

Daniel (Bill):  Indeed.  Well stated.

BobD:  Being able to back off, which I think I've done really well this week
with a friend of mine when a situation arose, and while I've had those same
feelings of neediness and a strong desire to fix the situation, something in
me has overridden those impulses to create a resolution right now even
though I get many impulses to do something about it, another impulse had
kinda come in to say "give it its time."  So maybe part of my learning is to
understand which impulses to follow and the reasons why and maybe as
important as trying to create the greatest relationships in my life with
people, it is of equal importance to have health and sanity, so making
decisions for myself might be more important than making decisions for other
people and relationships.  That's how I'm kinda reading what you're saying -
more correct or incorrect?

Daniel (Bill):  Your conclusions are reading our statements correctly.  What
you are saying is that you are trying to change the pattern of reaction that
you inherited from your childhood.  You were the pacifier, the one who tried
to mollify the competitive, high-stress family structure that you were born
into.  And what you really are doing by giving up this attempt to fix
everything and fix everybody is to focus on the only thing that is in your
control, which you intellectually know, that is your free will choice, and
allow God to run his Universe.  This is, of course, progress for you, my
friend.  This is Daniel speaking.

BobD:  Thank you both.  It doesn't always feel like progress, but I
recognize that there is some change in perception of how to view and act
within the circumstances.  

Daniel (Bill):  You see, we have several thousand years' advantage on all of
you - some of us greater and lesser amounts - and you have a mere 70 or 80
years and therefore your perspective of progress is conditioned on your past
experience, be it 30 years, 50 years, 70 years...  and our perspective is
conditioned on thousands of years.  So we see in your short lifetime great
progress.  You understand the difference in perspective here?

BobD:  Most certainly.

Daniel (Bill):  Imagine now what God sees.  He sees all of us in Perfection,
having completed the entire ascension career.  Imagine that the assessment
that the Trinity knows of us all.  It is this certain knowledge that our
pathways will achieve their goals, that we morontial creatures will have
fused with our Thought Adjusters and have their insight always present.
This insight which you are gradually becoming aware of, will in the future
uphold you as it upholds us.  Are there other questions?  Comments?

Steve:  This isn't a question, this is my feeble attempt in human words to
express my thanks to Daniel, Thomas, all the teachers for what you've done
for my life through Debbie, being with Debbie, helping Debbie, helping me
indirectly, listening to the lessons, helping me make it through the loss
which will be wedding anniversary the 8th and one year the 13th, it's gonna
be a little tough.  I don't know how else to say it, but I want to say thank
you for the teachings and for the help and the guidance especially you gave
Debbie when it got tough.  Indirectly I know the tough times for me.  I hope
Christ Michael understands and I thank you for the time that I had Debbie.
And also thanks to everyone in the group that's here now and the ones that
have left, a special message to thank them for accepting me for who I am, my
faults, and not being quite the member I should be, but I'm trying.  Just
thank you everybody.

Daniel (Bill):  Steven, my dear friend.  I, Daniel, am humbled to hear your
words of brotherhood, compassion, appreciation, and faith.  It is my great
pleasure to be with you even as I was with your beloved Deborah, and I am
still in contact with her, of course.  Do not diminish your achievements, my
friend.  You are not merely on the sidelines of this group.  You are a
member, and you always have been, even though you assess your participation
as inadequate.  Put aside those feelings.  Follow the guidance that you are
hearing, not in words at this point, but in intuitions.  Continue your
attempts at silence, listening, and I am quite hopeful, indeed I am sure,
that you will achieve the spiritual growth that you are now so consciously
yearning for.  I want you to know that my love for you is sincere and true,
as well as all of the others here gathered.  

Aaron:  This is Aaron.  A short pause on the chance that there is another
question this evening.  I would like to have this opportunity to close the
session this evening, utilizing the holding of hands in a chain as in your
prayer circle.  I have commonly referred to this as "the chain of love"
throughout my time as a teacher in various groups.  It practices the
distribution of energy, recognizing your gratitude for that which has been
given you, for the life you have and the opportunities that exist before
you.  With this gratitude and this sense of thankfulness and love, may you
to the best of your ability emanate this out in a pattern of radiation to
your fellows both to the left and the right - not so much a visualization
for to do so is perhaps confusing - but to feel within your being a sense of
warmth that can connote and relate to the love of God for you and that you
have for that Source.  And to the extent that you can feel this love for
your fellows, may you radiate this warmth outward so that an equal flow is
distributed in both directions.  May you understand, if you have not
concluded already, that love is the great signalizer of your closeness to
God.  If you can feel a true and honest sense of caring for another then God
exhibits himself through you.  I pause to allow silence for a few moments.
(long pause)  

Michael, you represent and witness to us the truth that our hopes and our
faith have substance that is not seen in material reality.  You have filled
our lives with a sense of purpose and given a great reflection of the
Almighty to this Universe we reside within.  In turn, we thank you and ask
that you reflect outward to the Almighty the gratitude for what this
all-knowing Source has given to us in you and through you.  And we honor the
Spirit within.  It is our direct connection to this Almighty and loving
Source which exists at the Center of all things.  Amen.