Transcript - Abraham - May 4, 1998

[Karri Hummel]

Date Posted:	May 13, 1998
From:	Calvin Mckee
Group:	Woods Cross, UT TM Group
Transmission Date:	May 4, 1998
Subjects:	Personal Questions and Answers
Teachers:	Abraham
TR:   Nina

ABRAHAM:
I am ABRAHAM.  Welcome to you, my friends.  It is always a great
pleasure for me to meet with you personally or in a group.  This
past week was indeed an exercise for you each in expanding your
capacities to receive divine messages, and an exercise for you to
build the muscle of faith with common sense or practicality.  Many
have found if they have questions, in the asking, the answer is
forthcoming.  You can begin to trust yourselves concerning the
receiving of divine word.  This lesson has taught us that Father's
presence is at hand and His wisdom is immediate.  An agenda-free
inquiry is a wonderful set up for a pure answer, a humble heart is
always apt to receive answers, even concerning the smallest of
questions.  I would at this time begin taking what questions you
have.

HONORAY:
Father Abraham, I would above all like to thank you for your visit
yesterday.  You said that you would visit each one of us this week. 
I was very happy to have your visit yesterday at a very interesting
time.  I think the hardest relationship I've had in years is with my
nephew.  You were here when I went the rounds with him a little bit
yesterday.  Sometimes I feel like I am making headway and other
times I still have the urge to slap him and tell him to shut-up, but
I think I did a little bit better yesterday.  Do you think I am
improving in the way I am dealing with him?  It was different
yesterday than usual.

ABRAHAM:
I was perceiving yesterday that your frame of mind was in a
searching mode.  Your love for your nephew compels you to do right
by him.  You hesitate with your words so as to not offend but to
help.  This hesitation is the asking for Father to be involved.  It
is the asking for Father's wisdom.  My daughter, Honoray, you have
well learned not to lean upon your own wisdom, but that of the
living God.  Your great faith has been your salvation.  You have a
tremendous love for individuals, and I would ask that you allow this
love to show more freely, especially with your dear nephew.  Your
words to him when tempered with love will appear to be more as a
help instead of criticism.  Yes, my daughter, Honoray, you do well. 
Is this answering?  (Yes thank you.)  Another question?

ELLEN:
I'll ask one for Nina.  She wants to know if you can speak a little
about her Grandma with Alzheimer's.  It is painful for her to go
visit her, and there is guilt if she doesn't.

ABRAHAM:
I am aware of this dilemma.  When the intelligent self speaks, it
reasons that your Grandmother is absent, and therefore, why be
burdened by the sorrowful vision.  The feeling/emotional self speaks
of a past love and life shared, and these memories would confirm
loyalty.  The animal or ego self would tend to banter at you with
guilt and the questioning of your loyalty.  The ego animal self
would drag you down a path of negativity which would force you to
flee from this painful situation.  Do you see, my daughter, if you
can move past the ego, the answer will become clearer?  There will
be no guilt, no regret, just experience.  My recommendation for you
is to make a last visit to distinguish for yourself the answer.  I
can confirm, your Grandmother is beyond knowledge of her immediate
surroundings, but her indwelling Father Fragment is certainly
watching over those things that she will need concerning her
morontia career.  Another question?

TECTRA:
I'll ask a question Abraham.  Can you give me some words of
recommendation or encouragement over anxiety and fear that I feel
about some of the things I have to do with Facilitator College?

ABRAHAM:
Certainly.  Going into the unknown is always going to produce some
anxiety.  This anxiety is an over-storing of energy and can be
manifested in physical ways, ways that could cause illness.  Also
can this energy be put to a positive use where great goals can be
accomplished.  On the anxiety scale, there can appear to be a
message within saying--that there may be the need to rethink certain
decisions.  Connect with Father, and confirm this is indeed His will
for you.  My son Tectra, this education is quite a leap for you in
terms of stating your spirituality--your intentions with your
spiritual knowledge.  Many can study the spiritual life; they can
act with high moral standards; they can portray to the world that
they have a good and kind heart; but, when spirituality calls for
action and hard work there is a tendency to hold back to where it
was safe--in "studying" spirituality, not "demonstrating" it.  I
doubt not your capabilities as a facilitator.  You do indeed portray
many of the Master's fine qualities.  To you my son, I would ask
that you spend time with the Master and ask of His strength... His
strength in faith... remaining unshakable in His beliefs... strength
in character, and focus to always be about the Father's business. 
Does this answer?  (Thank you so much, yes.)  You are welcome. 
Another question?

INERIA:
Abraham, and don't mince words, I can take it.  What is the one
thing that I do to hold me back that I could work on, that I
sabotage myself with and hold myself back with?

ABRAHAM:
I am understanding that you know this answer.  I can give you what I
perceive to be a stumbling block in your life.  I am understanding
you to be a believer in "good or bad luck." I can envision you as a
leaf blowing in the wind.  I can see the true essence of your soul
that is surrounded by much past beliefs or repeated patterns.  My
perception of your stumbling block is... the foundation of your
faith holds too much.  There is little room to build upon, to make
room for new light.  There is the core of Ineria who is a beautiful
child of our Father, who is complete in her potential, who is
everyday becoming, and around this core is a collage of protection,
beliefs or mysticism or past painful regrets.  My daughter, it is my
recommendation that you allow the things of old to die, to pass
away, while you allow your true self to come through, to be reborn
everyday, to allow those things that may have protected you, but did
not serve you--to pass away.  Each day, know that you are being
reborn, and those things that you cling to, if they are to serve
you, then worry not. Those things that do not serve you, allow them
to pass away.  You are a spirit-filled daughter with so much to
offer and the true essence of you is truly beautiful.  Allow it to
show more.  Seek not to burden yourself with redemption of sorts,
no.  Seek to lighten your load with humor and laughter.  Is this at
all helping?  (Yes.  Thank you very much.) You are welcome.  Another
question?

CALVIN:
I have one.  Sorry if it is off the lesson, but Steve, Nathan, Susan
and myself are working together on a statement for this meeting
ground list called the "Tmtalk" between hard-line Urantia Book folks
and Teaching Mission folks.  It is our hope that we can make this
"list" as a "Urantia Book of believers family," and yet, air out our
differences in a way in which you have been teaching us--your
lesson's have.  So, in the "introductory" that we would present, do
you have anything you would like to suggest or any insight before we
launch into this?

ABRAHAM:
I am remembering what the Master has often said... "One who is
confident in his own beliefs feels not threatened by another's." 
There is only good to come from the exposing of truth.  You are a
diligent workers to start this project and tend to the first shoots
of growth.  Seek to unite in ways of the heart and not the mind.  Is
this answering?  (Very good.  Thanks.)  You are welcome.  Another
question?

CLAIREESA:
Father Abraham.  I'd like to ask if I am on the right track with my
healing process and working with Gloria and the streams of white
light?  Could you give me any insight on that?

ABRAHAM:
Certainly.  I am understanding the progress is appearing somewhat
slow physically, but mentally this healing is taking great strides. 
The slowness of the physical is indeed taking, happening, building a
firm foundation, a nurturing of the soil to make for a sure and
steady growth.  The improvement in your personal countenance is
indeed aiding to your overall health.  All of Father's creatures
seek to create in one way or another.  My daughter, Claireesa, much
of your healing comes from your ability to keep creating, to find
that your life has been spent wisely, to make each day a personal
co-creation with Father.  You have battled with your confidence to
produce worthy creations.  I can say, you need not have this battle
anymore, only the knowledge that you are one who can give much with
the creativity that is within you.  Yes, your creativity stems out
into many directions.  Yes, you know whereof I speak.  My daughter,
carry on.  Another question?

TECTRA:
I'll ask another question.  I am just curious how and what are
Joshua and Jeremiah are doing?

ABRAHAM:
My understanding is they are receiving extended education at this
time, not together, no, but this education enables them to serve in
our continuing Mission here on Urantia.  There will indeed come a
time when we can all unite face to face with joy and assurance that,
yes, God has served us and served us well... He has been there in
all we experienced. Is this answering?  (Yes.   Thanks.)  Another
question?

MIRIAM:
Abraham, I was reading the Urantia Book this week.  I got finished
with the mansion worlds and now I am on to the "morontial
companions."  I don't know if anyone has ever asked you... this
isn't a deal like proving anything, so if it seems too personal,
please let me know?  Would you tell me, like, I just try to picture
when I am reading, and it is like... "wow, I wonder where Abraham
is?"  "What he has gone through, where he is at now?"  The question
is... where are you?  Where have you progressed to or whatever? 
Does this seem rude?  When I am reading, it would just kind of help
me know--help me visualize.

ABRAHAM:
Yes, I am understanding Miriam.  I have experienced all seven
mansion worlds.  I have experienced training on other worlds as
well.  I have ventured to Edentia and Jerusem, as well as many of
the planets similar to yours, to gain experience that has brought me
here to you.  Under the training of Machiventa Melchizedek, I have
asked for certain assignments and he has seen to my education.  I
cannot say that after the mansion worlds my training was routine,
but designed to help me to aid the world from which I came and so
dearly love.  Is this answering?

MIRIAM:
Oh yes.  You know how in the Urantia Book it says like the creatures
that are spiritual or perfect, like created as spirits like they
will like just know the spirit thing.  It is kind of a bummer to be
mortal to learn and go through this, but like you know how the
experience thing, like by the time we grow up and be perfect.  I
don't even feel comfortable saying the word.  When we grow up and be
perfect, will we kind of keep the experience of this?  Like when did
it start feeling better?  It is so hard.  I am loving the mortal
thing, but I was just wondering when you started feeling better?  Do
you know what I mean?

ABRAHAM:
I'll let you know when it does!  (group laughter).  I can say my
daughter it is certainly possible for the mortal life to attain a
divine flavor.  You need not reach the mansion worlds to be able to
move steadily without stumbling.  Spiritual assurity can be had now
through your continuing study and willingness to be about the
Father's bidding.  Mind you, it is not a constant feeling, no, but
bits and pieces of spiritual well-being.  Is this answering?  (Yes.
Thanks.)  Is there one more question?

ANTHONY:
I have a few, but I will pick the most important one.  You talked
about detachment as being a last resort, and what we are supposed to
do is give up control to make our unhealthy attachments become
healthful connections.  But, if it is so unhealthy and so one-sided,
and no connection and it is about to be a detachment, do I have
any... can I be selfish in some sense to try to preserve some of my
best interests?  Detachment is inevitable.

ABRAHAM:
I see that as not a problem to have some self protection.  There are
relationships that are not producing spiritual fruits, only poisons.
 These need not be worked on over and over just to repeat certain
patterns.  After a well made effort, if there is not progress, then
detachment is inevitable and in your own best interest, as well as
the counterpart of your relationship.  I am not answering your
question though?

ANTHONY:
I think it is answering some.  I just don't know how selfish I can
be and try to survive and show unconditional love as well.  That's
the problem.

ABRAHAM:
The Master did not have so much of what you would call selfishness
as He did have common sense.  The Master made conscious effort to be
of service, and when that proved fruitless, He went on.  It was not
so much a matter of the "self" as it was a matter of doing the
Father's will.  Father asks you not to stay in a relationship that
is the burden of great strain in your life, a terrific weight upon
your back that would pull you from your spiritual connection.  My
son, you can answer this better than I can.  You are faithful to
carry out Father's will.  He can do without any self
sacrificing--no, that is not necessary. Your mind is set already and
I am happy to have confirmed what you have already known. Yes.  Is
this answering?  (Yes.  Thank You.)

I am slipping, but I would express to you my enjoyment at our
personal interaction.  You are indeed my friends and I would give
you each my love and know that you are certainly capable of
receiving divine answers.  Until next week, shalom.