[tmtranscripts] Center for Christ Consciousness -- August , 2003

[Donna DIngillo]

CENTER FOR CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS
Larkspur, CA

MOTHER SPIRIT AND MICHAEL – AUGUST 4, 2003

My children, good evening.  This is Nebadonia, your Mother.  I welcome
you here this evening and receive you into my bosom.  As my mind is
actually endowed throughout your being of consciousness, I invite you to
receive me more fully in your awareness in sensing my motherliness and
trusting my all pervading love that flows through you.  It is my desire
that you, my children, should know, feel, receive the fullness of my love
for you.  Receive this now, my dear ones.  (Pause)

Envision if you will a light beam as my love.  Invite my love as this
beam of light into those places in your body where you sense tension. 
Ask for the light to envelop this tension.  Sense the expansion of the
tension and let it dissipate as you melt more trustingly into my loving
embrace. (Pause)

Invite the truth of Michael now into your being.  Welcome your
Creator-Father into your body and mind.  (Pause)

As your Creator-Father stands in the very center of your being, invite
your thoughts to gravitate into Him.  Invite the way you think and the
thoughts you think to blend into His being to be transformed into truth
and into righteousness.  You can only gain greater freedom in your body
and mind when you do this, my children.  You will actually grow and free
yourself from fear and doubt by simply inviting your thoughts into the
truth.  Spend some time now consciously directing your thought patterns
into the very essence of your Father.  (Pause)

Can you sense now an expansion of your own loveliness?  Can you feel an
awareness of a greater capacity for love and for goodness?  In this
exercise you are being nourished in your soul by your soul’s food—the
Living Truth.  You know your Father has spoken these words:  “I am the
Living Water.  I am the Bread of Life.”  And now, my children, experience
this nourishment vibrating, alive within you.  Know this is the place to
receive your food for your eternal life.  (Pause)  Your Father will
address you now.

Greetings, my children.  This is Michael.   When you open yourself to me,
you are inviting every speck of error and sin within you to be purified. 
I desire that my children stand before me in the purest innocence of
their goodness—of their Father-likeness.  It is my truth that will free
you from all of the layers that you have held within you in thought, in
word, in deed.  It is by the action of your Mother that my truth is able
to shine forth through these many layers.  So you need not fear in coming
to me and allowing all of your thoughts to enter into my truth.  Each and
every one of them will be purified.  You only have to ask and to receive.

So I ask you again this evening, my children, will you do this for me? 
Will you bring your thoughts of doubt, fear, anxiety and depression to me
so I may release you from them—so your Mother can clean your mind; so you
can stand before me clean and pure and innocent as a newborn babe?  Take
this question into the stillness, sensing where there is resistance and
inviting your Mother’s embrace to soften that within you.  (Pause)

Many times you have heard the words ‘you must be born of the spirit.’ 
You are indeed birthing a new identity for yourself—this spirit resonance
within you that vibrates with the love of the Father in Paradise.  This
is the new self you are allowing to emerge amidst the shadows—those deep
dark shadows within you.  And so, it is right and good that you would
feel this tension as the light longs to penetrate through the shadows. 
By allowing your thoughts to come into my truth, my light can shine
through you.  The shadows within your being are vanquished.  And so, I
ask you: will you do this for me?  Will you bring me your thoughts and
let me shine through them?  This is all I ask of you, my children.
(Pause)

Long have the clouds of confusion hung heavy over the hearts of men and
women on this world.  But you, in asking for the light of truth to shine
upon you and through you, are dispelling these clouds—each and every one.
 By emerging your true self out from my light out into the world, holding
high your truth light for your brothers and sisters to see, you are
thereby casting more light into the world receding one cloud at a time
into nothingness.  

The broken hearts that have lain scattered across the fields of
deprivation and despair are being gathered by your coming into me and
allowing the past to be reclaimed in truth.  Those long-distorted energy
thought patterns are now being corrected, slowly but truly, each and
every one will be purified in my light.  And you, as my workers in the
field, I call you now into that realm and ask you to find the
broken-hearted in this desolate land and bring me my children.  Bring
them to me for my love.  Will you do this for me, my beloveds?  Will you
prepare yourselves for the harvest of lost souls by allowing yourselves
to be so illuminated that these souls will come to you openly for they
will know that you have their nourishment and salvation?

I withdraw and leave you to your Mother.  Good evening, my dear children.
 (Pause)

My children, as the peace of your Father envelopes you and keeps you safe
in the womb of my universe, let your hearts be light with joy and
celebration as we come now into the time of harvest—harvesting these
souls for healing and reclamation.  

You may bring to me tonight your questions and comments about what you
have experienced and received and what thoughts still lie heavy on your
souls so your Father and I may ease for you.

Student:  Mother, I would like to know how to pray for others and what to
pray for others.  I would also like to know how to pray for me without
being selfish and self-centered about it.

Mother:  When you ask for help for another person or yourself, simply
invite that the Father’s will prevail in that person’s life.  You will
not necessarily know what is intended for that individual, will you? (No)
 But you can certainly ask that the Father’s will be done.  And what is
more important than knowing what it is that person needs?  It is finding
that sincere motivation within you that longs to see a better life for
this individual or for yourself.  Hold a picture of this individual in
your mind.  Present this person before me and your Father and simply ask
for the Father’s will to prevail.  And, if you can, for a few moments
still your mind and feel your love for this individual as you allow the
gaze upon this individual to extend and so we may enter into this
individual’s mind and by our love uplift that person.  Is this something
you would be interested in doing my son, C?

Student:  Yes, Mother, I will do it now.  

Mother:  As you do this, remember to find that place of love deep within
you for that individual.  Let this love begin to envelop you so that one
day you will actually feel the Father’s love for this person.  And when
you hold this person up to your Father and to me, you will in essence
feel the three-fold action of our ministry being seeded into this
individual.  And this will make your prayer highly effective and
beneficial.  Do you understand?

Student:  Yes, Mother, thank you.

Mother:  Your willingness to pray and serve my children is commendable
and deeply appreciated my son.  

Student:  Thank you for your love and guidance.

Mother:  It is always yours.  Be in our peace.  

Student:  Mother, I have a question about planning—about planning one’s
day or a week of activities.  What can you say to help me or any of us to
plan better during the day or the next week so we can work with you and
our angels to more effective in our work and service during ordinary
times?  I would love to hear you re-state what I’ve heard before.  It
seems like an important question for me right now.

Mother:  B, my son, it is a very pertinent question for all of you, and I
am very happy that you have raised this tonight.  Your planning is part
of a co-creative process to bring forth an ideation of the Father on the
earth.  Is this your understanding?

Student:  'Ideation of the Father?'  Yes, I guess I see this.

Mother:  Now I would like you to let this idea grow within you at this
moment and I will add something into you.  (Pause)  Can you sense that
there are steps that lead you from the idea down through the numerous
tasks and processes that must be developed, congealed, correlated as they
move into the outward manifestation.  Can you sense that now?  (Yes, I
certainly can.)

Now, invite your angels in to this idea and ask them to sew you into the
step that you need to take at this one particular time.  Let them blend
this step into you.  (OK)  Pause.  Now can you sense a deeper grounding
of this step that you must take on your way to manifesting this ideation
of the Father?

Student:  Yes, that grounds it by sewing my best capacities into the
idea.  I can see that.

Mother:  Now, here is the pivotal question.  Can you be patient while
this is being seeded (tape turned)......

Student:  ......That’s a hard one for me—to wait until I’m called into
action.  I don’t see the point of being patient.  Can you address that?

Mother:  But, my son, this is as you say ‘where  you drop the ball,’ and
where your energies become diffused.  By not allowing the patience that
is required, you begin to sense that things are not working as they
should because you are not trusting in God’s plan or the process of
manifesting of the idea. So in a way, you are asserting your own will. 
And whose will do you wish to implement?

Student:  Not my will, but God’s will.  

Mother:  So you must find that desire within you and ask yourself when
you feel this impatience: whose will do I wish to implement?

Student:  This sure is a big question.  This self-willing is in a sense
something that happens out of impatience with a process I think is not to
my liking or going too slowly.

Mother:  There are other components to it, but these are some of the main
impediments to your being able to plan and implement carefully,
skillfully, and wisely.  Now I ask you to invite your Father to impart
more patience into you.  Do this now and see what this does in your mind.

Student:  Right away there is a peace and relaxation right into my body I
get from inviting Father into that place.  Then, a kind of freedom and
confidence as well. 

Mother:  How would you contrast this to what you feel when you are in
your scattered energy mode of being?

Student:  Just that...scattered; and seemingly efficient when I’m in the
moment, but as you look at the day or week, it’s not efficient or
effective.

Mother:  As you sense this patience and all of the qualities it imbues
within you, follow this thread now and ask for the grounding and the
patience to lead you to the next step in conjunction with your angels as
they guide you.  Let the thread unfold in the next few moments. 

Student:  Can you please restate this, Mother, I’m lost.

Mother:   Call upon your angels.  Allow them to ground you in the idea
and the patience you need to let the process unfold.  Let them do the
work in your mind, inviting them to give you what you need right now at
this moment.  And when you are ready the next thought will emerge.  Let
it unfold steadily, naturally, and progressively.  Do you understand?

Student:  Yes, I do now. (Pause)  Would you like me to report what
unfolds?

Mother:  You may if you wish.

Student:  I get a sense from them that they want me to know that they
have a better idea or sense of how the process needs to be done than I
do.  To let them carry this out with me co-creatively, and let them take
the lead.  That’s what I get.  

Mother:  Now as you begin your day, would you be willing to invite your
angels to enter into this creative process with you, and follow this
exercise I have given to you this evening to steady you, to pace you? 
You will need to practice this over time with them until it becomes
habitual and effortless and natural; that it would be unthinkable to you
to enter into any endeavor without the cooperation and collaboration of
them.  And you may always call on Michael, your Father, to imbue you with
the necessary patience and pacing you need that will make you a more
effective team member with your angels.  Has this answered your question,
my son?

Student:  With more than I’ve ever dreamed.  Thank you, Mother.

Mother:  I want to use you more than you can know.  For I know what is in
your heart to serve your brothers and sisters.  Let us use your energies;
you do not need to scatter them as you have.  Let us use you the way we
know is best for you and is the best use of your talents and inner
resources.  You will find a greater breadth of expression—more than you
can imagine now—and you will be awed at the wonderful works you do in the
Father’s name in bringing His love to His children on this world.  

Student: OK, Mother, I’ll stand for that.

Mother:  And we will stand behind you.  You have all of our love and all
of our support, and more than you can ever imagine or envision for
yourself at your disposal.  I thought this would make you happy.  And be
in our peace, my child.

Student:  Mother, I’d like to thank you and Michael once again.  These
moments are so very precious.  I want to send my love to a very special
guardian angel who is now carrying the soul of my dearly beloved S.  You
know that I know that nothing is truly lost in God’s universe.  She’s in
good hands.

Mother:  J, my son, she is safe and well cared for.  Lovingly cherished
for she is precious as are all of our children.  My love enfolds you. 
Feel my embrace and know all things are well.  

Student:  Thank you, Mother.  

Mother:  (Pause while embracing student)  Our peace is upon you.

Student:  Mother, I have a question for you about my nighttime
meditation.  I find it easy to do my meditation in the morning, but
difficult to do another meditation at night even though I want to because
I’m tired from the day’s activities.  I’m not very successful at that. 
Do you have any advice for me to help me achieve a more meaningful
nighttime meditation?

Mother:  K, my daughter, when you prepare yourself for your nighttime
meditation, envision yourself safe in my womb.  Invite me to encircuit
you as you slumber.  Invite your mind to be purified during your sleep by
asking your angels to construct new thought patterns for you to open up
new channels in your body that will render your thought processes more
receptive to the Spirit.  Then, relax and drift into natural slumber. 
And this is all you need to do for your evening meditation.  A simple
exercise to prepare you for rest.  Do you think you will enjoy doing it
this way?

Student:  Yes, this seems very doable and an enjoyable way to experience
my time before my slumber.  

Mother:  Do you have any other questions about this?

Student:  Not now.  I will do as you say, and thank you.

Mother:  Rest easy in my embrace, my dear one, for my love will soothe
your soul and open new glimpses of the beauty of yourself.  Our peace is
with you, my dear one.  

Student:  Mother, I needed my soul to be nourished tonight.  It seemed
like it was opened to yours and Michael’s nourishment.  For the last
couple days I’ve been dealing with negative emotions, allowing myself to
experience them—emotions of resentment and anger.  I do not like to be in
this place.  Those are the thoughts I gave to Michael in the previous
exercise.  There is also a primal sense of entrapment in just in my daily
survival—in the work that I do—and what propels me to keep working so
hard.

It’s like not having the faith that the universe will provide for me and
my family.  It’s so deeply ingrained and it’s like a cycle and I can’t
get off no matter what spiritual techniques I use.  And coupled with my
experience of last week in being here, it’s really strong; staring me
right in the face.  It’s not the identity I wish to experience any more,
but it’s so wrapped up in fear that I am deeply afraid to let it go. 
It’s like my existence is wrapped up in it.  But I have had a taste of
the Father’s identity and how He sees me, and that’s now I want to live
each and every moment.  

Mother:  D, my little one, you sense the inherent duality of your
being—the God-self pivoted against the evolutionary nature.  My question
to you is: have you found it within your heart to love this primal nature
of yourself?  

Student:  I can’t say that I have.

Mother:  Why would you not want to love this part of your being?  It is a
part of who you are.  It is the way you have been made in the image of
God.  It is a part of God’s plan for you.  And while the inherent fears
and raw primal-ness you experience cause you discomfort and distaste, I
ask you to consider the beauty of this evolutionary nature and exactly
why you are made this way—intelligently, lovingly, and part of a much
bigger plan than you can consciously fathom at this point of your
development.  Have you seriously pondered these questions—these
ideas—now?

Student:  I have actually thought of those kinds of things, and even in
my conversations with others, particularly C.  We talked about these
similar issues today.  How we need to embrace our primal-ness and not
deny it within ourselves but listen to and learn from it. 

Mother:  And to love it.  Because this is one aspect of God that you are
now allowing to be embodied through you, and transcending it is a gift
that you bring to the Father to birth the soul through this raw
primal-ness.  What a gift you bring to your Creator!  Ask to see the
wisdom and the loveliness of this nature.  And in coming to the fullness
of a deeper understanding, you will see the seeds of love being sown in
your heart.  Once you love this nature fully—unconditionally,
unreservedly—will you then have found the love of God within you.  Do you
understand?

Student: Yes, I do.  

Mother:  Are you willing now to go into that place and accepting exactly
how and why you are made in this image that God has created for you?

Student: I will try.  I will ponder that and I will try.  This is
somewhat of a new idea.  

Mother:  Call upon your Father and me now to weave this idea more into
your soul.  Spend a few moments in doing this.  (Pause)  One day when you
have fully perfected yourself and stand in the pure essence of divine
glory and splendor will you look back upon these times of being in the
physical form and your awe of the Father’s plan will lead you to new
heights of worship and celebration of the majesty of our Creator.  You
have so much to look forward to—you are only just beginning, my little
one.  Our peace is upon you.

Beloved ones, I bring this evening to a close, but you are close to me
now.  You only need to turn your thoughts to me at any moment to receive
me.  Receive my love and blessings upon you, and allow your angels to
draw even closer to you, holding you in my presence, weaving my essence:
my motherliness, my tenderness, my love for you into each cell filling
you with comfort, the comforts of home—home in me.  I am your universe. 
I am your home.  Good evening.