[tmtranscripts] Center for Christ Consciousness -- Michael & Nebadonia; March 8, 2004

[Donna D'Ingillo]

CENTER FOR CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS
LARKSPUR, CA
www.ctrforchristcon.org


CHRIST MICHAEL & MOTHER SPIRIT NEBADONIA – MARCH 8, 2004
 
The evening began with a prayer/healing circle for one of the group members.  
 
Good evening, my beloved children.  This is Michael.  Thank you for participating in the healing exercise for your sister.  Much of what you do in spirit will be hidden from your eyes as the massive outpouring of human misery eventually leaves the collective mind of this world.  The suffering on Urantia has been great, and yet there is meaning and purpose to all of this.  I ask you in these times of great change and transformation to stay focused on the good you know is possible through our Father’s love in you.  All too often the tender human heart feels overpowered by strong negative emotions, and your suffering leads you to think you have been abandoned.  But, my children, never have your been abandoned.  My love pours out over this world.  But the suffering of my children here has masked the truth who each individual is.  So my question to you tonight is:  are you willing to unmask my children from their pain and to feed them with my light so their eyes can be opened to the truth of who they are?  
 
The forgiveness exercises that your Mother and I have imparted to you paves the way for the unmasking of the suffering in my children.  That you are in fact the spiritual antenna for my forgiveness to pour forth on the planet allows my children to be fed with what they need to eventually free themselves from their misery.
 
Tonight as before, I would ask you to picture in your mind’s eye those individuals close to you who are in great pain and in profound anguish and suffering in their body and mind.  See them in your mind’s eye.  Sense your compassion and then ask to feel a devotion to helping them overcome their internal turmoil. When you are ready, invite me into their being and ask me to heal them.  Feel your desire for my healing to predominate in the fullness in their being.  Stay focused on this as your Mother and I move through these individuals.   (Pause)
 
What this world needs now is me.  Pure and simple, it is me – my living essence of truth.  When you focus my being in one of my children, you nourish them with what they truly need in the core of their being.  You open the conduits within your mind for my love to flow through you, expanding you as you feel your passion for this individual to be healed grow.  As you heal by being a conduit, so are you in and of yourself healed, for your mind is expanded and your being becomes filled with love that pushes out any error or distortion or pain that you might feel. 
 
As you allow my living essence to come into these individuals that you see before you, it is your desire – your expansive wish for this person to be made whole – that will create new channels of my love to flow through you and to nourish both of you in this dynamic circuit of energy exchange and healing.  We have asked you to be planetary healers. You can do this each day by bringing one other person to your Mother and me for healing.  
 
The other component of this exercise in selecting an individual for healing:  I would ask you to focus on someone who has caused you pain, someone who has wounded you in a profound way.  Ask for the healing of this person as this will heal you in the deepest layers of your being.  When you feel the resistance because you have been hurt by this individual, simply see yourself standing in front of this person and invite me to stand in between the two of you and to ask for my forgiveness to flow into both of you.  Do this now, my children.  (Pause)  Allow your desire for my forgiveness to grow.  Find your passion for this as your Mother expands you to receive more of my forgiveness to flow in to you.  (Pause)
 
Now extend your hands forward into my being in your mind’s eye.  Allow my hands to blend with yours and to notice what my hands and yours now do.  (Pause)  This is how we will heal this world, my children.  You will bring my beloved lost little lambs to me and you and I will apply our love and make them whole.  

Now when you expand this exercise to heal a planetary situation where there are groups of people who have been at historical fraternal odds with one another, see these two groups standing in front of one another and invite me to step in between the two of them.  Feel the desire for my love and forgiveness to flow into each of these groups.  Watch, as you desire my love to enter into them, what it does to them in your mind’s eye.  Think of a group or one or two people who are at odds with one another.  It matters not if it is a large or small group.  Wherever there is contention between two individuals, simply notice that in your mind’s eye.  Center me in between these individuals and simply ask for my forgiveness to flow into these needy children.  (Pause) 
 
Bring these angry, fractious, rebellious children to me, my beloved ones.  These are your less developed brothers and sisters.  They need me to grow strong.  They need the life breath of their Mother to strengthen and nurture them.  When you bring them to me, you feed them.  This is how we will heal our children of this world.  This is only one way, but it is an important way and a significant endeavor that you can make that will occupy your mind a manner that will liberate your thoughts to the realm of Spirit and give you great satisfaction of the joys of serving.  
 
Tonight, your Mother is here to address your questions or comments on this evening’s exercise.  It has been a joy to be with you here as I know you find it very helpful in your own inner growth to learn these new ways and techniques using your mind in a more productive manner.  Speak freely with your Mother about your concerns about this evening’s exercise.  She will clarify any ideas that you are unsure about.  Your efforts in healing in this manner are so well appreciated and understood and accepted and honored.  As I leave my mark of peace upon you, know that my peace carries within it my love and acceptance for the beauty of your being.  You are my child and my love for you is immeasurable.  Good evening, my beloveds.
 
My children, my precious little children.  I am here with you now, and I love you.  Feel me, feel your Mother embrace you.  This is Nebadonia.  You are such tender children in spirit.  The breath of my life force is ever growing in you.  You can never have too much of me.  Ever and always will I be there to quicken you in every needful moment of your life.  You only have to ask.  Become accustomed to asking for my Spirit to move through you.  You need not hesitate or think you are asking too often.  You can never possibly ask too frequently.  You may need it from second to second, or minute to minute, or hour to hour; but never hesitate to ask, my child.  I am here for you, for each one of you.  So, ask now and receive.  Become more accustomed to feeling me move in you.  (Pause)
 
When you ask to feel me, you are opening your mind to receive my mind imprint upon yours.  You will always get what you ask.  It may take some time for you to perceptibly appreciate what is moving through you, but the more frequently you ask, the more can I expand you and the greater you will feel me in time.  Ask; feel me move through you, beloved ones. (Pause)  
 
I will give you a few moments to center your thoughts on this evening’s exercise.  I will address your comments about this when you feel moved to speak to me. 
 
Student:  Dear Nebadonia, is it on the right path when we try to exchange our mind for the mind of Jesus and your mind too? To let our Thought Adjuster pilot us into that direction, to swing us into these stronger currents of spiritual growth?
 
Nebadonia:  Your mind is being engaged in a new way the more you desire to follow the Father’s will.  It is as if you are arresting your own mental currents and allowing them to be put into a higher stream of consciousness.  You do this by your choice – your desire.  And the desire broadens the stream and keeps you more fully anchored into it.  As this stream becomes broader and deeper, does your indwelling Father Fragment move your streams of thought along to its eventual destination which is the Father in Paradise.  Do you understand, my son?
 
Student:  Yes, I do.  Thank you very much.
 
Nebadonia:  I wish to address your comments about the exercise in particular of bringing your Father into your fraternal relations where there have been contentions, and what you experienced and what you need help in focusing upon and allowing more of his healing to enter into the interpersonal relationship.
 
Student:  I was working with my daughter and she taught me about quaking; that quaking feeling that seemed to be like a great teaching tool that seems to be very fair and democratic between individuals.  Could you comment on that please?
 
Nebadonia:  How do you experience this quaking?  What feeling is there affiliated with it?
 
Student:  It seemed to be like a welling up in my heart almost like tears but a near certainty that this was the ideal spiritual moment for maximum spiritual growth between individuals, maximum love.  
 
Nebadonia:  Did it feel good to you?
 
Student:  Yes, it did; profoundly so.
 
Nebadonia:  Did it feel healing and completing in your being?  
 
Student:  Yes, it did and sort of a timeless element too.
 
Nebadonia:  And did you notice that there was greater freedom and joy expressed between the individuals?  
 
Student:  Yes, and less fear too.  
 
Nebadonia:  Stand firm upon this foundation, my son.  Know the validity of the experience within yourself.  Heighten your desire to sense more of this as your Father’s forgiveness flows through you.  And you will build this foundation within yourself very strongly and will anchor you and move up your being and make you this living foundation of love and forgiveness.  Does this answer your question to your satisfaction?
 
Student:  Yes, very much so.  And I will do that.  
 
Nebadonia:  And be in my peace, my son.
 
Student:  Mother, in the specific focus in placing Michael between the groups of warring folks, I just saw these two sides in almost visual abstract terms, in the case of the Israelis and Palestinians – they really didn’t see each other.  They were not seeing that particular woman, that particular girl, that particular man.  Because to do that if we really see each other, it would be so overwhelming, they would just break down.  So that breaking down is a good thing, even though it feels sometimes like a loss of control; it’s an admission of feeling, a breaking up of a callousness that has to come before we can feel and then maybe see each other as individuals, so we are not setting off a bomb or rocket at them over there, but we are hurting that man and destroying the life of that little girl.  
 
Nebadonia:  In this exercise that we have engaged you in, it does require that you bring in the individual or group as persons as human feeling sensing beings.  The groups that you have acknowledged see each other in terms of ideologies: they are the beliefs that each has held for centuries.  And yet underneath it, there is this raw humanness that is each individual.  So what you are doing is getting underneath the belief system and allowing the forgiveness to flow into them as individuals.  You are creating new energy pathways that will, in time, help these groups to recognize one another as brothers of the same Mother and Father; as family members in a very diverse family:  that this person has this certain set of understanding and that the other person has another understanding, but beyond and beneath and above all else, they are brothers in the same skin.  
 
These groups will never embrace their humanness until the forgiveness binds them together.  As you practice this exercise, you can share this with your brothers and sisters who want the peace in this region of the world to prevail.  Help them to appreciate the beauty of their prayerful action that doesn’t require a great deal of time; but it does require a soulful, heartful desire to want this to happen.  And in so focusing on this simple exercise, they are creating more energy for peace and forgiveness to eventually dominate this region.  Never underestimate your efforts in this.  This is so vital now as these groups will never be able to get beyond their ideological differences until forgiveness is an integral part of the healing.  I thank you for your comments, this evening, my son.
 
Student:  Thank you, Mother.  How precious it would be if more of them could talk with you like this.  This is so precious; thank you, thank you.  
 
Student:  Mother, I had difficulty with the exercise between myself and one other person.  I seem to be unwilling to tackle the world’s problems such as war if I am having such trouble with only one person.  The problem I was having with that was all I could see were symptoms and barriers.  I didn’t see any opening for a healing to take place.  All I could seem to hope for was acceptance on my side, but without their willingness to change, I felt at an impasse to even imagine the flow of energy that could be taking place since their freewill was adamantly behind a barrier.  So I want to be filled with wisdom and awareness and love.  But I’m not sure that that really can even reach other people as much as I hope it can.  Therefore, I hope that did not discourage my ability to experience that for myself.  How can we get that across to other people when they are so set in their ways?  I am fairly set in mine too.
 
Nebadonia:  Are you willing to try this exercise again as I speak to you?  (Sure)  Is there more willingness in your heart now to forgive this person?  Be honest about where you are; there is no judgment.  You do not need to answer to me verbally.  Ask me to come into you and to soften your resistance.  (Pause)  
 
Student:  I find myself asking for wisdom.  I reach a place where I don’t care what they think about me or what kind of slander or abuse I might take from them.  I don’t know where to go from there.  But perhaps that’s sufficient to have a level of acceptance about it.  Of course I want to help them.
 
Nebadonia: In your mind’s eye, can you see your Father between the two of you?  (I think so)  Become firmly anchored in this now.  (Pause)  Now invite him in and ask for his forgiveness to flow between the two of you.  (Pause)  Would you care to share your experience with your brothers and sister tonight?
 
Student:  I felt a flow of truth and energy that felt like a burden being lifted.  I felt like that our destiny of being two people was so far beyond that level of conflict.  It felt like a great relief.  I felt humbled and yet also lifted up in stature.  
 
Nebadonia:  Do you believe that you would find forgiveness something spiritually significant for you to ask for each day?
 
Student:  Yes, totally!  It would address many of my problems.  
 
Nebadonia:  When you feel your own inner resistance to forgiving, call on me and I will breathe more interest and desire into you.  When you feel strengthened by this, simply invite your Father in and allow him to bring both of you close together in love and understanding.  That is all you need to do, my son.
 
Student:  What a gift!  Thank you.
 
Nebadonia:  And be in my peace.
 
Student:  Mother, one of the situations I brought forth was the relationship between my daughter and her mother.  It seems to have gotten worse.  When I did the exercise, I saw the two of them and I saw the pain and anguish in them.  One of the things I keep on saying to my daughter is that your mother is in a lot of pain and she feels she needs to hurt you in order to heal herself.  
 
But it is hard for me to not feel anger towards her mother for what she is doing to my daughter.  I was able to see that she is a sad and lonely woman.  I was able to see Michael and the power of forgiveness come amidst them and saturate them with his love and truth, and how he embraced them both.
 
Nebadonia:  And my son, I ask you to embrace this woman as you have created life with her.  In order for the completion of your daughter’s healing, she must know that her parents have forgiveness flowing between them as well.  Think of the bond that you will forge with your daughter as she knows that you are harbor no shred or speck of ill will toward her mother.
 
Student:  You know I have tried to enlighten my daughter about her mom and her mental instability.  But the question I could ask is:  it’s hard for a child, even though my daughter is 18, to forgive her parent if her parent keeps on doing the same thing over and over to them.  How can we expect a child to forgive her parent if they are filled with so much anger and frustration toward them?
 
Nebadonia:  Your child will grow in spiritual maturity, will she not?  (Yes)  And is it not your role as her father to help her develop her spiritual potential?  (Yes)  So, if you harbor any anger towards her mother, what will she learn from you?  (I understand)  You are trying to teach her to be unconditionally and infinitely loving and forgiving.  She will be able to imprint herself upon you.  You must have your reservoir so open and purified so that your daughter’s own sense of understanding can feed upon a healthy source. And you do understand the meaning of my words, my son.  Feel the desire of your heart to achieve this increased capacity within yourself.  It will only free you and give you greater range of emotional maturity to feed to your daughter.  
 
Student:  Your words are so true. She feeds upon me so much already.  
 
Nebadonia:  Make sure that the food she receives from you is clean, pure, whole and good.  
 
Student:  You have my word.  She has my word.  
 
Nebadonia:  And I honor your attempts to achieve this level of forgiveness.  It will serve you well all of your days, my son.  Be in my peace.
 
Student:  Is all of life about forgiving?  Is that what life is – we come here to suffer and to forgive?
 
Nebadonia:  The purpose of life is to love.  That is why you are here – to learn how to love.  One of the components of love is to appreciate another person.  Sometimes that will stretch your capacity to understand because a person’s pain will cause them to act most unkindly, unfairly, and even barbarously.  But you, who have experienced moments of pain and have unwittingly hurt people, would you not want to be forgiven for every misdeed albeit unintentional?  Would you want to be judged or condemned for anything that you did not truly understand what you were doing?
 
Student:  I want to forgive and I want it to end.  I don’t want to be living just to forgive.  I want the wisdom.
 
Nebadonia: But at the level of human suffering on this world, forgiveness and understanding and compassion are integral parts of loving.  It is truly not separate from loving.  Loving is understanding all, accepting all, and compassionately embracing all with a depth so profound that you will be stretched beyond your own human limitations and understandings.  Love is total, unconditional understanding, merciful acceptance of where another person is operating from in their own limited understanding and emotional immaturity.
 
There is great suffering on this world.  My children need to be freed from this.  And we are here to breathe our Spirit of love through you, each of you, and the purity of your heart to become infinite love expressions of our Creator in Paradise.  Is this asking too much of you?  Each of you must decide in your hearts if you have the capacity and strength.  But you will be given more fuel to propel you into this high level of achievement of spiritual status as a love saturated healer of this world.  This is what this world needs.  In doing this, you will be healed; you will be expanded and given more love, more peace, more joy so that you can feed your less developed brothers and sisters.  It must be shared, and when you put your attention on the needs of others, you are fed and you grow.  
 
Student:  Mother, I keep hearing the word:  gratitude. Would this be a tool, an antidote?
 
Nebadonia:  Gratitude is a desire of your heart.  Anytime your desire aligns with the recognition of who you are as a child of God, you open the door to increasingly receive more.  Your heart is a wide expansive sensing pulsating energy center that receives the emanations of love coming from your Source.  When you feel this gratitude in your heart, you are opening the door to receive your Source, and more love can flow into you and expand your capacity to be grateful for all you have been given.  And it grows proportionately.  
 
The human will resistance is very entrenched in our little children of Urantia. Soften this in yourself and others through my breath by inviting me to come into your being.  The level of what you have come understand as unconditional love has no restrictions upon it.  The human mind puts up certain levels of qualifications that act as barriers to receiving the level of love you desire so deeply in your soul.  It is only by coming into me and asking for my breath to soften these barriers will you be able to yield the willful resistance in the human mind and receive that which you desire so deeply.  
 
Pray for your sister, for her mind to soften, for her own inner resistance to yield.  She is in deep turmoil and her challenges are very great.  Love her through your prayerful attempts to bring me into her body and mind.  She needs your support at this time, my children.  
 
My peace I leave upon you, and my breath will expand you into new heights of love and forgiveness for yourself and for your brothers and sisters.  Good evening.     
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