[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 2.28.05 - Contacting Your Spiritual Family

[JERRY LANE]

Dear Folks,   It seems Mother wants to "get down" ever further into how to 
practically realize the process of stillness, even to the point of 
contacting your own celestial teacher - as well as Her and Michael.  These 
were the steps I took myself before I could transmit Them.  I had months of, 
I guess you could call it training, with Welmek and a friendly seraphim (is 
there any other kind?) before I felt the possibility tease my curiosity, and 
nerve.  Now I'm so glad it happened.  Enjoy, and take care.  Jerry - 
Nytrayn at msn.com.

Nebadonia 2.28.05

Marin TM Group

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,    Welcome.  We open our hearts - our 
feelings, and our minds to welcome You.  We thank You for these insightful 
lessons - Your encouragement, and the way how to renew ourselves and our 
relationships.  For this is the key how to love and appreciate both 
ourselves and the others we meet.  This is truly beginning to be quite an 
adventure, like we were made for it!  Amen.

Nebadonia:  Good evening, My children, this is your Mother Nebadonia.  I 
feel your heartfelt greetings and I assure you I feel welcome indeed to be 
here with you.  Just relax and let My presence swell in your minds.  Take a 
deep breath.  Let it go.  Remember I am all around you - spatially.  You can 
best feel Me by relaxing your attention and letting it turn everywhere 
outward.  This kind of tingling, cushion-soft pressure, just this 
fundamental consciousness of being consciousness and alive? - this is Me.  I 
am with you - right in your bodies and permeating all this inner space you 
feel as your mind.  So relax any effort.  If you find yourself doing 
anything, shall we say, trying to anticipate what I will say, or if you 
catch yourself trying to concentrate or focus to a point within yourself, 
just let it relax.

You will find that as you approach stillness, your mind, being 
intrinsically, delightfully curious, will try all kinds of things to get a 
hold on Me.  But I am a bit more subtle than that.  I cannot be held as you 
might hold a concept; much less, I cannot be anticipated.  I exist in a 
realm you can only think of as – pure spontaneity.  I am nowhere near as 
bound, My children, as you are by various physical and mental antecedents.  
For this very reason - let Me offer the insight - this is how I can be most 
valuable to you.  As you relax various concepts and ideas as they occur to 
you, you are just clearing the way for My presence – My essence - to swell, 
to increase within your inner awareness.  As you become more adept at this, 
you will notice that your thought processes just generally tend to slow of 
themselves as you realize deeper and deeper there is nothing to apprehend, 
there is nothing to grasp hold of as you are normally doing all your waking 
moments.

During normal wakeful consciousness, your mind acts like a small hand 
successively grasping concepts and ideas your personality is creating so you 
can keep yourself company, you can talk to yourself, you can figure things 
out, you can analyze any number of projects or past events.  As I mentioned 
to V several weeks ago, this is a wonderful ability, this linear, 
sequential, one-at-a-time kind of mentality you use as a tool to get through 
your busy days, constantly analyzing what you are doing and creating what to 
do next.  But for the very reason that this process is designed to create a 
linear continuity to tie what has just happened to you, right through the 
present moment into what to do next, and especially since you modern folks 
so thoroughly enjoy being busy; this process becomes so unconscious, so 
culturally conditioned that many of you know no other form of consciousness. 
  In fact, if most people are awakened from sleep, whether dreaming or not, 
they will simply tell you what they were thinking while they were sleeping.

It is this kind of mentality, this type of mental activity associated with a 
sequential process, that We invite you to take a break from, as often as it 
occurs to you.  This can be just a sitting down and closing your eyes, 
taking a deep breath and heaving a little sigh, and saying, “ Hello.  Here I 
am again, Mother, checking in, welcoming You, inviting myself to feel Your 
presence,” - if only for a few moments.  Obviously if you are driving your 
car, this is just a mental greeting - perhaps a looking around and saying, 
“Thank You, God, for this life I’m living.”  A little moment of worship, for 
you and Us.

But by doing so you are taking a break from this linear continuity, this 
focused attention, to unfocus for a moment, to relax and let that which 
cannot be anticipated - the larger realm of spirit personalities - impinge 
upon your mind.  Don’t forget too, My children, a great part of this 
spiritual awareness and presence is a dimension of your own personality.  
This is part of who you are.  This is your own creative ability, your 
ability to escape, if you will, a binding causality by bringing  something 
new into time and space.  And how else can you exercise this ability, not 
only as it relates strictly to some problem-solving, but as an invitation to 
open to that which you cannot anticipate?  For within this real possibility 
is where you contact not only your own creativity, your own spirit, but 
where you can contact Us, your celestial family.

You have an immediate spirit Mother and Father, and you share with Us the 
Universal Father of all creation, a fragment of whose Being lives in your 
mind and writes the experiences of your personality as your soul.  You have 
a Guardian Angel, an experienced seraphim who has volunteered and gone 
through a rigorous training to accompany you through life and to create and 
maintain an epiphany of this life you are living.  And now, since the 
adjudication of the Lucifer Rebellion and the lifting of the spiritual 
quarantine that Urantia has been cocooned in for some two hundred thousand 
years, now, My children, you also have access to volunteer celestial beings 
- ascendant mortals and other seraphim who have volunteered to come to 
Urantia expressly to share their lives with you, and with whom you can share 
your life.  Because none of Us of your celestial family will initiate this 
contact and intrude upon your life – more than these invitations - you have 
to initiate the contact.  You have to welcome Us into your life so this 
contact can be conscious to you.

Just as your most profound and heartfelt worship is a way of thanking our 
Universal Father for His creation of all that exists, so too your prayers, 
My children, are a heartfelt and sincere asking for help.  Articulate with 
as much detail that satisfies your desires, what you want of Us.  Use Us.  
We belong to you.  We are here for you, and so We ask of you, share your 
life with Us.

What you are experiencing day to day is unique in all creation.  Share it 
with Us.  Offer Us your prayers.  Don’t be shy to ask for help.  Otherwise 
We cannot help you in quite this way.  If you do not ask for help, My 
children, We must assume you wish to try this particular part of your 
adventure by yourself.  This is your life and We will not intrude upon it.  
So ask Us for help, especially for those of your fellows whom you know need 
it most desperately.  It is hard to explain and so it requires a measure of 
faith on your part - to believe when We assure you - that your prayers for 
another do not in any way intrude upon their freedom.  But this is truly a 
way you can actually help another person.  So formulate your prayers, your 
conversations with Us, as best you can.  But then take a break from even 
this and be open to Our reply.

Here it helps to have a paper and pencil handy to jot down what you hear 
within you.  Our personal spirits are very subtle, My children, and as 
strange as this may seem at first, you have to give Us reality – for 
yourself.  You have to acknowledge Us as real.  And it helps to do so to by 
writing down these impressions you receive.  This process can be continued, 
as many of you are finding out, into a prolonged contact with a spiritual 
teacher, sometimes an ascendant mortal - and here I’ll mention your friend 
Welmek, with whom many of you have had contact - or often a seraphim who has 
come to Urantia to participate in the Correcting Time, the Teaching Mission 
of the planet.

In this regard, I invite you to realize that almost any human being is 
capable of contacting and enjoying a celestial teacher.  I say almost only 
because you first have to have the faith that this is possible, then the 
determination to try, the openness to receive this contact, and the 
willingness to give it reality by writing down this conversation as it 
appears in your mind.  Imagine a world in which most of the citizens are in 
tune and conversing with a spiritual teacher.  Because - I will remind you 
from your text - from a human standpoint all spiritual personalities are 
perfectly coordinated.  This has no parallel in human reality: where you 
have complete individualization of unique beings in perfect spiritual 
accord.  But this is what is possible and available to the human race 
through this contact.  And this is just another way that, person by person, 
the human race will come into spiritual accord.

So you see, My children, this stillness We invite you to experience is a 
door to your own creativity, and contact with your celestial Family - a way 
of making this Family real for you.  This is a way of enjoying experiences 
which not only add to your soul, but give you a means of accessing its 
spiritual reality too.  Again, as Michael invited you to do last week, I too 
invite you to read and reread these lessons over and over to inspire your 
imagination.  Use your own curiosity as a bridge until you get to the 
reality of this experience.  At some point, contact with Us - especially 
with your own personal friend and teacher, will be unmistakably someone 
other than you.  You will probably not know at first whether or not this is 
just your own imagination - your own creativity, or memories, but after 
awhile it will be unmistakable, and you will have found a friend like no 
other.  It will, as you say, blow your mind.  That’s the idea!  Let your 
mind expand until, as I suggested once before, you realize that - in here - 
there is no top or bottom, there are no sides.  You are floating in Me.  And 
then, beyond Me, you are held in the loving grasp of the Infinite Spirit on 
Paradise.  Your immediate father, Michael, is always beside you and in your 
heart, and the Universal Father of all creation is right within your mind.  
You are never alone, My children, and I would love to have you realize this. 
  Will you give it a try?

If you have any questions or comments this evening, I would be glad to hear 
them.

Student:  Mother Nebadonia, thank You for your information.  You’ve answered 
most of the questions I had, and have given me inspiration to reach further. 
  I like the idea of having a celestial family and being able to contact 
them - a feeling of…a journey, a feeling of reaching out.  I appreciate all 
You do or us,  and all my teacher does for me, patiently waiting until I get 
through all the stuff in my head so I can contact him; and it is always 
valuable when I do.  I thank You.

Mother:  Well, C, you are most welcome.  I enjoyed the discussion all of you 
had before I joined you, for you were all very much on the right track of 
realizing stillness can often be just taking it easy for awhile and 
following your feelings - often just wondering what your feelings are, and 
then being open to following them.  This is what I meant by thinking of 
stillness in less and less formal terms of a precise meditation, but just 
relaxing.  Challenge yourself, though this may sound ironic, challenge 
yourself to see if you can feel Michael’s peace.  It is there in your heart 
– your feelings – ever so deep and restful.  So just relax and let it swell 
forth.  Often you will feel a little ripple go through your body and 
sometimes even the physical space around you as you relax.  Give Us your 
trust that this is the best way, the most creative, the most fulfilling way 
to enjoy your life.  And to be lovingly open, non-judgmental; and not 
anticipating what these other beings, these other human beings around you, 
are.  And be in My love.

Student:  Thank you Mother.

Student:  Yes, Mother.  You mentioned that You want us to use You – You and 
Michael – but how do we do that?  How do You want to be used?  How do we 
pray?  Sometimes I have a difficulty in putting things into words.  Did You 
hear my prayer last night before I went to bed – my tearful prayer before I 
went to bed?

Mother:  Yes, My son.  As you Mother, as your connection with your life, I 
experience everything you experience.  This is Who and What I was created to 
be by the Infinite Spirit.  As you live within Me, it is with the dimensions 
of My mind, My intelligence that you perceive and think, while within your 
own essential reality - your unique personality, you yourself have spirit 
and an ability to create.  Now, within this life we share together, you as a 
personality, in asking for help of greater spirit personalities, need - for 
yourself, in order to realize what you want, what you feel you need - you 
need to articulate this to yourself.  This is essentially what prayer is.  
Michael and I, and God himself realize before you do what you need and, 
consistent with Our own universal law, We provide this.  And We appreciate 
your heartfelt worship of thankfulness for all the conditions of your life 
We support.

Now when you, with the power of your own creativity, think of a deep need 
that you personally feel, and express this in a prayer, then you are more 
capable of joining in a partnership with Us to fulfill this need.  This is 
where, this evening, I reminded you that before, and all during, but 
especially right after you express this petition for help, you need to 
listen, for as much as you are open to a genuine answer which you yourself 
cannot create or anticipate, to this very degree We are able to answer you.  
This points directly to the sincerity of prayer.  This determines how far a 
prayer can reach within your life.  For example, if you know you are already 
discounting the answer, as in your mock-humorous song recently of, “Lord, 
won’t You  buy me a Mercedes-Benz?” – obviously nothing will happen.  But 
if, say, you are praying for guidance, it helps for you to think to yourself 
what you feel you cannot achieve on your own, for in doing so you are making 
the fullest use of you own creativity – just to do this.  Also it puts you 
in a humble attitude of realizing your own limitations, and being open to 
what can follow, almost instantly, your petition.  Here I must caution you 
that in a heartfelt prayer for guidance for what to do next, sometimes the 
answer can come so quickly, so instantaneously, you miss it .  It can 
suddenly just pop into your mind.  So if you do not write this down, or if 
you do not credit your own request and really want an answer - by being 
willing to give it a try - which takes yet another kind of courage, it is 
often lost.

This is how We help you, My son.  We are constrained only by your ability to 
receive Us.  We cannot, because We will not force anything upon you.  The 
fragment of our Universal Father who inhabits your mind can offer you 
visions of what to do, but even these are couched in such a way that you can 
refuse them, otherwise you would have no real freedom.  These are all facets 
under the general heading: openness.  Living open.  So this is not something 
you accomplish in one step, but simply initiate over and over as often as it 
occurs to you.  Relax.  Feel the deep peace of Michael’s presence in your 
feelings.  And truly - wonder!  Is this helping, My son?

Student:  A lot of food for thought.  You brought up the idea of constraint. 
  What if I pray for this constraint to lessen, to soften, to relax, so I am 
more readily open to Thy – to Your perceptions…and insights…and guidance?

Mother:  Ahhh! – now you have it!  (Group laughs)  Bingo!  Exactly.  This is 
why We have suggested that humility, the feeling of something enormous all 
around you, is actually a wonderful thing.

Student:  In my prayer last night, the idea…I felt so trapped in my work, 
and in my relationships, and in my debt, that I just didn’t know what to do 
– my soul felt so unfulfilled.  And the more I let myself feel this 
trapped-ness, and the tears were flowing…I felt that humility, that 
humbleness…and: I can’t do any more!  There’s a limit to what I can do!  And 
even though nothing was articulated  - and I think I prayed to every 
celestial being known to man – but ultimately to God - there was a sense of 
peace that came over me.  And so I went to bed with love in my heart, and 
peace in my soul.  And I will pray that this constraint that I have within 
me will be softened, that I have a clearer picture of how to resolve certain 
issues.

Mother:  Yes, My son.  I ask you to read and reread again what I’ve said 
this evening, and feel again what you’ve experienced.  This will help you 
realize that this Spirit you wish to contact is enormous, even gigantic - 
beyond any grasping or containing.  Spiritual beings can only communicate to 
you just…slightly more than you are capable of receiving.  This is why I 
said: Exactly – pray your own abilities are stretched.  Beyond this the path 
is one of continuing to express to yourself what you are going through, i.e. 
– think about your life - what you are trying, what you are discovering that 
works, and doesn’t work; slowly growing the faith in yourself that you will 
need to step out on a new way.  For within your very necessary evaluation of 
what is possible, you will only be open to what you can imagine you can do.  
It does no good for Us to suggest what you are determined you are incapable 
of doing.  But as you get greater confidence and faith in yourself, you will 
be more and more open to ever more profound changes which We can suggest.  
So this is a real dimension in which you can grow.

This is a great faith you have, My son - in Us! - that in a very humble way 
supercedes even your faith in yourself.  So let us grow together – in both 
ways that can be taken.  Let us each grow side by side, and let us grow 
towards each other in this contact between us, ever more consciously One.  
And be in My love.

(Long pause)  Isn’t this wonderful, My children? (Group murmurs agreement)  
This is the peace which allows you to rest and put an end to it all.  Give 
yourself over to our Father for the night, totally trusting Him to keep it 
all together, and then put you together again tomorrow.

I would appreciate it so much if all of you who will read My words of 
tonight would imagine a world where everyone who wants one has their own 
personal celestial teacher, where everyone is able to tune in to a dear 
friend as close to them as their own mind, beaming in on My carrier wave, 
always there and providing a contact with a dimension of reality – a whole 
spiritual family - who are already fully coordinating this planet along with 
– millions! – of others.

This is just beginning, My children.  And here it comes.  Reach out for it – 
for Us.  And stay in My love…  Good evening.