[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 6.12.06

[JERRY LANE]

Nebadonia—June 12, 2006

Marin TM Group—Mill Valley California—U.S.A.

NEBADONIA—T/R-JL

(Causes of impatience)
(Stillness and the perception of time)
(There is a Renaissance under way)
(Time is God’s Law)
(Regarding WAVE)
(Visualizing Michael and Nebadonia)
(The cost and effect of pretensions)
(The real and the ideal)
(No conceived state of mind can hold 24/7)

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,    Tonight we offer our prayer for Your help 
that we can realize and exercise more fully the human virtue of patience.  
For while we certainly don’t want to just drift along in some bog of 
self-satisfaction, neither do we want to be caught up in some petty, 
impatient, pushing at events that only jam us up, and others, and cause us 
to miss opportunities.  So we ask for Your insights on how we can be more 
open-minded and flexible with the critical dimension of time.  Thank You.  
Amen.

NEBADONIA:  My dear, earnest children, this is Nebadonia, Mother Spirit of 
Nebadon, Daughter of the Infinite Spirit, your friend and close mind-buddy, 
your real helpmate.  I welcome your prayer this evening, for it is right in 
line with the recent lessons Michael and I have been giving.  I’m sure 
you’ve noticed how many different ways We’ve tried to express to you what We 
mean by being open-minded, ready to accept that your human reality is 
capable of enormous change.  What is happening both inside you and outside 
you--as you perceive it--are so intimately interrelated, playing a kind of 
leapfrog of cause and effect.  Yet this is still a profound truth to accept: 
that you have such an influence on what is happening seemingly strictly 
outside you.  And this is not only what you might think of as physical 
perceptions, even subtle ones of value and meaning, but very much along the 
dimension you asked Me to help you with this evening, the dimension of time.

(Causes of impatience)

Human impatience has as its main cause a lack of keenness of perception.  
Michael touched on this last week when He mentioned that those folks who, 
mainly due to fear and an apprehension of change, cannot perceive how things 
are constantly changing, cannot realize directly the uniqueness of each 
moment. Their inner fear casts a dull pall over each moment in such a way 
they live an experience of nothing new happening, terrible in its boring, 
repetitious, numbing effect, and all the while it’s just their own 
projections, their own fear and inability to see how things are renewing.

This is one of the root causes of impatience, this perception that nothing 
is happening, or that things are happening too slowly, too minutely, to 
satisfy your need to pay attention.  But insofar as perception and 
understanding play their game of leapfrog, the perception of nothing 
happening, or not happening fast enough, is so often based on total 
misconceptions of human history and exactly how long certain events took in 
the past.

True enough, the past is not repeating itself in its changing aspects, but 
some of your current events are closely parallel to those which have been 
happening for thousands of years.  I’m talking here about the meeting and 
clash of cultures, greatly accelerated the last few centuries in what you 
call the Age of Exploration, where cultures and peoples long isolated ran 
smack head-on into each other, often with the near annihilation or 
enslavement of those who were technologically inferior.

And so today in this meeting of cultures and their struggle to survive, if 
you have no understanding of the time dimension it took for these cultures 
to form, and how different cultures are changing at different rates within 
themselves--some quite used to change, while others revere a kind of 
changelessness--this alone can feed so much impatience on both sides.

This is what you have to understand about each other.  Just as it is a 
spiritual generosity within your personal relationships to give another time 
to respond, to create, to adapt, so this interpersonal patience has to be 
extended from one major culture to another.  You cannot do as nation states 
and different countries what you cannot do personality, otherwise it’s too 
much an abstraction.  It has no personal resonance within your own 
experience.

(Stillness and the perception of time)

Once again we come back to the practice of stillness, which now you can see 
is a way of stepping out of your normal time sequence, your busy schedule of 
events, and just practicing being here and now, feeling the deep 
timelessness of that.  Then you have something with which to contrast the 
pace of the rest of your day.  You can base your understanding of the nature 
of subjective time on a new perception brought about by this contrast.

This willingness to spend some time in your bottomless home base gives you 
the flexibility then to realize that every event in your life has its own 
particular  time-sense.  And the mini-stillness breaks We’ve been suggesting 
you pop into your day are a way of separating events and realizing each has 
its own time, its own pace, its own demands.

All of a sudden you notice that everybody you meet has their own slightly 
different time as well.  It’s part of their personality, their experience of 
life, their soul.  It’s why they need watches to get in sync with others.  
With this kind of understanding and perception in your daily life, you can 
begin to look at different cultures around the world.  This is just one more 
way of your gaining a kind of world culture.  Be a citizen of the planet and 
feel some small measure of objectivity about your own culture, the time 
expectations you inherit with so many other factors as an accident of birth.

For these are critical misunderstandings happening on Urantia now as major 
cultures, long in isolation, are being forced together in a shrinking world 
of instantaneous communication.  This is the major fear of the 
fundamentalists in every culture of the world: that their cherished way of 
life is being destroyed by simple contact with others.  Yet this contact is 
inevitable.  Isolation is ever more impractical in an electronic world.

There has always been a World Soul, but now it is coming into a physical 
existence as well, electronically, and there’s a natural curiosity of all 
peoples for each other.  There’s the marvel of travel possible now through 
your television and internet.  Now of all times this quality, this virtue of 
human patience is more essential and valuable.  What a precious spiritual 
generosity it is now when  different peoples simply give each other time to 
respond, to react, to adapt.

Those of you who have read the Urantia book know that one of the major 
facets of Lucifer’s’ folly was His attempt to short-circuit time to bring 
about as if overnight certain changes that would normally take thousands and 
thousands of years.  Ironically, tragically, this progress would have been 
accomplished had His declaration of personal liberty--actually license, not 
so totally destroyed plans which had been going so well.

His impatience, His egomaniacal selfishness and arrogance in suddenly 
declaring that the headquarters and planets within the Local System should 
set aside these well-laid plans that were progressing so steadily, caused 
such chaos and so much suffering, you are still experiencing the ill effects 
two hundred thousand years later.  The kind of inter-tribal and inter-racial 
warfare that is usually but a short phase in a planet’s development has now 
lasted on Urantia ever since.  It still gets out of hand today.  It still 
consumes equally hundreds of thousands of lives in just one of your modern 
day genocide’s and warfare.

So yes, My children, patience is a much desperately needed human virtue at 
this critical time in your world history.  The Oriental, the Occidental, and 
the Muslim worlds are coming together as never before.  The different pace 
of how each sees an ideal life, means each could learn so much from the 
others.

(There is a Renaissance under way)

For now there is also a marvelous Renaissance under way like never before.  
Can you see it?  The contact is happening.  The inter-association of ideas 
and ideals is growing profoundly.  Very steadily there is being established 
a free marketplace of ideas between and within these different cultures.  
But it does take time.  It does take a generosity of spirit to give each 
other time.  And this is so greatly facilitated by a deep and through 
understanding of history, and how long it took certain historical realities 
to develop.

Will you find this patience in your own individual lives, My children, by 
noticing the uniqueness in each new day, and how much things are changing 
all around you--if you have the nerve to perceive them?  Base your own life 
on the time flexibility you discover in your stillness.  This is what 
Michael means when He says: Be in My peace.  Dare to let everything simply 
stop, and be at peace deep in your core.  Let all the stress and strain 
drain away.  Refuse to be rushed.  Don’t push.  Feel for the right pace in 
each moment, each separate event, each person.

Look deep into other cultures and feel for their pace.  Be heedful of their 
cries and simply slow down and give them a little time. This is the 
generosity that Michael and I ask you to give freely, and We promise when 
you discover the knack of it, you will find such a reward, for you will also 
have gained the ability to give yourself time.  Ultimately you will find a 
spiritual transcendence of patience itself.  You will find you do not need 
so much patience as a discipline when you see reality a little more clearly, 
a little more keenly, and your understanding of historical events, 
especially those you are right in the middle of--right now--finds a  broader 
ground.

(Time is God’s Law)

Give yourself time to understand time. This too will be an adventure for 
quite some time in many, many phases of your eternal life to come.  Time is 
not a simple dimension, for it is above all God’s Law.  Around all, through 
all, beneath and upholding all, is His creation of time.  He sets the flow, 
and He is within you, ever whispering: Be still awhile. This is the way to 
feel My flow, to be in accord with it, to dance along with Me to My music.  
So ever keep the Creator in mind.  You will find the patience you need, 
along the way to sometime transcending the need for it.

If you have any questions or comments this evening, I think now is the time 
for them.

Student:  Mother, I do have a question.  I assume that You were listening in 
on our conversation earlier.  (This was a discussion of the creation of 
WAVE)  Something most extraordinary has taken place among us and I would 
like to hear from You more about why such an event has happened.  What I 
speak about is the creation of a new order of beings through the liaison of 
the lowest freewill creatures in the universe--at the beginning phases of 
their existence, and the Father.

The only instance of such a thing happening was the creation of the 
Secondary Midwayers, by whom I would term super-mortal beings on this 
planet.  And then, of course, there are those most glorious events when we 
are Finaliters on Paradise.  We can embark on an adventure of 
Trinitization--of creating another being through a unique idea or 
thought--with a Paradise personality.  I would like to hear more about how 
such a thing came about on Urantia recently.

I would speculate that You and Michael must have petitioned the Father for 
such a wonderful gift, because it is almost unimaginable to me that we can, 
through a simple act of coordinating our minds and our hearts, and 
connecting to what we call the Merkaba--this energy grid that we participate 
in—bring about such a wonderful event.  I would like to hear more about this 
from You.

(Regarding WAVE)

NEBADONIA:  Yes, My son, I acknowledge that this event has great meaning for 
you, and those involved, but I feel I must caution against trying to wrap up 
a newborn event in such concepts so soon.  It is understandable and 
altogether human that you strive to comprehend some of the events that are 
occasioned by Monjoronson’s arrival.  Yet I would ask you to exercise a 
little patience here too, and not seek to comprehend this event by these 
overreaching comparisons.

I know it is difficult for you to envision an event without comparing it to 
others of your understanding.  Yet while every comparison has both 
appropriate and inappropriate associations, often both can greatly stifle 
the very newness and uniqueness of an event.  Only time will unfold for you 
the full dimensions and potential and actual usefulness of this creation.  
So I ask you not to compare it to other things of your limited understanding 
that are so completely different, such as the historical creation of the 
Secondary Midwayers, or events on Paradise.

For this has to do with what is happening now with Monjoronson’s arrival.  
It is highly unique to this time and this place on this particular planet.  
You can actually, if unintentionally diminish the wonder of it by wrapping 
it in such foreign concepts.  It may be more difficult, but it is much more 
valid, My son, just to let your awe and your wonder go naked.  Can you feel 
what I’m suggesting here?

Student:  Yes.  Absolutely.  And I would be most pleased to just let it be 
as it is.  And I would hope to receive some instructions on how we, as a 
group, can participate in this.

NEBADONIA:  Well, We teased you once before about your curiosity, but this 
is your most precious gift to give: to stay in touch, be curious, wonder 
with both meanings of the word.  Wonder is an active seeking for the 
truth—for example: I wonder what’s happening here--and yet wonder is also a 
simple, profound reaction.  This also requires a generosity of spirit, for 
to truly wonder you must give yourself away, must you not?

Student:  Yes.

NEBADONIA:  Must you not acknowledge your own limitations and inability  to 
fully comprehend something that is unique?  And so: back to My lesson on 
patience, and giving time for any newborn simply to develop on its own for 
awhile.  You support the process with your love and your wonder and your 
good wishes.  And I would advise all of your brothers and sisters to also 
suspend their all-to-hasty disbelief.  We bid you wait and see.  Be not so 
quick to either define or deny the new events happening on Urantia.  You and 
I, My children, we’ve never been here before.  God doesn’t work that way.  
Be careful you don’t put any limits on His creativity.  Does your curiosity 
have any more requests?

Student:  Not a request, Mother, just a heartfelt welcome to this newborn 
babe.  Such an extraordinary gift from the Father.  I open my mind and heart 
to His strong development, and I will hold Him in my heart-room and thank 
the Father for these most unusual and love-filled times.

NEBADONIA:  Amen, My son.  And so you see, you feel, you experience the 
rewards of faith.  Be in My Love.

Student:  Thank you.

Student:  Mother Nebadonia, thank You from the bottom of my heart for Your 
loving support that I get constantly.  I was wondering how I can visualize 
You and Michael in my mind.  I know You are in my mind, but I don’t know how 
to visualize that.  At the present I can visualize Michel as a compilation 
of all the pictures of Jesus I’ve seen, and You kind-of like all the angels 
I’ve seen drawn—only without the wings.  But I just wanted a better way of 
doing it than that.

(Visualizing Michael and Nebadonia)

NEBADONIA:  Well, My son, that’s not too bad!  (Mother laughs)  Michael 
wishes to be visualized, if you will, just as Dad, just as some beloved 
father you can feel close to, you can feel very informal with: someone to 
take you fishing.  You recall that He mentioned one of the things most 
lacking in  the visualizations of Him as Jesus with His followers, was the 
spontaneous fun and deeper joy they shared.  We are both pleased you can 
have a greater realization of Our sense of humor through the Teaching 
Mission transmissions.  This is a positive way of saying what your Urantia 
book puts as: You shall not picture Jesus as a man of sorrows.  Though He 
was tried—severely tried—in every point of being human, He was also at the 
same time uniquely Michael, a Creator Son, and this is a genuine mystery 
that He shares fully only with His Brothers of like experience—the Master 
Creator Sons of the other Local Universes.  So you can visualize Him as a 
dear father you can sit and talk with, and laugh.

So you can visualize Me too as your mother, and as I am really ageless by 
any human measure, I played with you once with the notion that Michael and I 
are just out of being teenagers, since our Local Universe is only a little 
over a third developed, though We are hundreds of billions of your years now 
from Our journey out from Paradise to get started.  An angel without wings?  
That’s OK with Me.  I’m quite flattered to be compared with one of My 
daughters.

But for those of you who are not so inwardly visual, We can be a very subtle 
presence in your minds—the two of Us, reassuring you We are here.  You can 
generally feel Us a little more acutely when you take a break from your busy 
activities just to say Hello.  Spiritually you can think of Us as somewhat 
like your sun, only Our energy knows no such boundaries.  We are Creator Son 
and Mother Spirit of millions of worlds, inhabited with trillions upon 
trillions of human-type beings, planetary and ascendant; then too all Our 
other Sons and Daughters--angels to Melchizedeks.  And We are right beside 
you, and within you, just your mother and father, your friends and 
helpmates, so delighted when you want to share your life with Us.  This is 
the glory of Our being, My son.

Student:  Thank You, Mother.  I’m more and more understanding the friendship 
part, which is something I never could until Michael said so, several 
lessons ago.  But You’ve mentioned it also, and I’m replacing the alter, the 
throne I had You on for a while; and it’s very pleasant too.

NEBADONIA:  Thank you, My son.  It is because We are right within, and right 
beside Our children that We can be fully what our Father intended Us to be.  
These abilities of Ours do come from Him, as do your own.  (Yes…)  So 
continue in My love.  Visualize Us however it pleases you.  We trust it will 
be appropriate.  (Thanks, Mother…)

Student:  Yes, Mother, as I was sitting here, I was asking myself what was 
going on within me, because there seems to be a lot.  The thought came, I’m 
being stripped of all pretense.  What I’ve noticed--because of the different 
groups I’ve participated in, it seems like I’m becoming more and more 
sensitive to pretentiousness.  For myself, I want to be more in the 
moment—more and more and more.  And it helps seeing how temporary everything 
is—how impermanent.  And I’m a part of it…

I feel I’m really rambling here, but what I’m experiencing too is my sleep 
cycle has been really out of whack.  I wake up two or three hours later and 
feel really agitated, and like last night I decided to get up—it was about 
three-thirty—and I meditated, and I wrote, and didn’t go back to bed until 
about five.  And then I had a full day’s work ahead of me.  So I’m wanting 
for sleep!  But I’m also aware there’s a newness happening in me, a new way 
of living, or being, and I want to expand and explore and break 
through—whatever patterns hold me back.  So if that entails sleeping less, 
and getting up and meditating, and writing, then I will do so…  (heavy 
sigh…)

(The cost and effect of pretensions)

NEBADONIA:  My son, you are to be congratulated on your noticing the 
connection between pretentiousness and how it takes you out of being 
here-and-now, and into different affectations or various persona you may be 
tempted to put on.  This new awareness can lead to a very good cycle where 
your desire to be here and now does give you a perception of how things are 
changing, and the strength not to cling to some notion of a permanent world. 
  This desire does bring your pretensions into sharper focus so you can 
slough them off, shed them like a reptile getting rid of an old, useless, 
callused kind of skin.  This takes faith and courage, to stand so naked then 
without any covering of pretensions to clothe you.  Yet being naked this way 
has its advantages, does it not?   You begin to notice the layers of 
pretensions that others are wearing.  And there is a certain spiritual 
fragrance in going about so naked of defenses, so out-there, if you will.  
This is what you call—not--playing games.  You enjoy directness.

As for your disturbed sleep, My son, have you gotten to the bottom of any 
particular stress or anxiety that seems to suggest itself?  I ask this 
because it seems you do not entirely relish these moments of consciousness 
in the middle of the night.

Student (laughing a lot…):  It’s only because I work so hard during the day, 
and that… (still laughing…)  When You put it like that…  Hmmm…

There are moments when I feel like I want to break through these old 
patterns and my own self-conceived limitations.  I think that’s where I’m 
fighting this battle within me, which I have alluded to before—between the 
real and the ideal.  I want to be open, and experience more perfectly and 
purely this moment.

NEBADONIA:  In the night season there are two things happening.  One is 
physical rest to replenish your body’s storehouse of energies and depleted 
nutrients.  This is largely a matter of good food and physical rest.  At the 
same time there is a need for a deep psychological, mental kind of 
restoration.  This is one of the main purposes of your dream life, to go 
over your daily events so you can understand them.  So it’s nice if you can 
distinguish these two, My son.  As you go through your days, ask yourself if 
you are feeling physically tired or just a kind of mental stress from not 
being able to get enough sleep.

I caution against being too dissatisfied with where you are…

Student (laughing):  But I am!  That’s the thing—I am!--dissatisfied…

(The real and the ideal)

NEBADONIA:  Stillness and the deep peace--the home base you need to 
establish within yourself to be here and now, to realize where you are each 
moment--is generally so much more enormous than your ideals—or should be.  
Or else you cannot thoroughly rest.  Without this essential acceptance of 
yourself, you have no home base from which to pursue your ideals.  You have 
a big choice to make here, as to which one are you leaning into: the real or 
the ideal.  Both are necessary, but you have to based on the real.  Your 
home base of stillness is not something you directly create.  It’s a 
by-product of relaxing and accepting, to achieve here and now.

If it helps you conceptually, think of how Michael and I, and our Father see 
you as a complete being, still imperfect, still in need of ideals as a 
direction to orient yourself--but only as an orientation.  Think of turning 
around and pointing yourself this direction or that, which is all well and 
good, but you have to be standing on your own two feet on solid spiritual 
ground.  Acceptance has to be the greater part in achieving here and now, 
for ideals can constantly precipitate you forward off balance everywhere as 
much as pretentiousness can hold you back.

Ask yourself now: are you capable of this choice?  Do you have a free will 
to accept yourself—as you are?  Not that you need to answer this right away. 
  But I would look to that.  I think you sense there is nothing so valuable 
at times as a good night’s sleep.  Remember how we talked about lying 
yourself down and accepting yourself totally in order to relinquish 
yourself--totally?

Student:  I do so want to relinquish myself totally.

NEBADONIA:  You see how that’s tied in with accepting yourself?

Student:  Yes.  There’s an interesting paradox that comes to mind: the more 
I empty myself, the fuller I get.

NEBADONIA:  True—but there should be a little break in there.  
(laughing—Yes, I know…)  You should be able to just empty yourself for a 
while.  I’m pointing you at another kind of paradox, that is, how do you 
create something transcendent to you, like stillness?  How do you feel and 
experience Michael’s peace all the way in, so you can just let everything 
else all go?

Student:  I guess the sense of satisfaction comes from the reality that I’ve 
had tastes and glimpses of this peace; and desire to be there 24/7.

(No conceived state of mind can hold 24/7)

NEBADONIA:  Yet We’ve cautioned you that…  (Yes...{laughing again}) these 
are still just concepts…  (Yes, I understand…) these are still just states 
of mind that reality demands you constantly let go of.  Don’t forget prayer, 
My son.  You can always ask Us and our Father for help along these lines.  
Part of it is knowing when to let go all those memories and concepts of 
peace you’ve known—and that’s not easy to do, all those wonderful 
moments—but they can actually lead to a petty dissatisfaction with now, and 
get in the way of your rediscovering a new peace the next moment.  Your 
study of Oriental philosophy has told you how all your various concepts of 
enlightenment have to fall away to make room for the real thing.  So be at 
peace.  Just relax.  Your Father is always there in your heartbeat.  
Sometimes it comes down to this—counting your breath and feeling your heart 
beat—to get the rest you need.   And feel My love.

I thank you, My children, for a wonderful evening.  (Yes.  We thank You, 
Mother)  I salute your courage to stand so naked, and assure you that the 
spiritual fragrance of your examples is a pure blessing for so many others 
out there.  For your love, and your devotion, your curiosity and your 
wonder, do come through your words.  And so, once again, Michael and I thank 
you.  Feel His peace deep inside you, calling you to rest.  Just let go and 
float away, buoyed on the sea of My love.  Good evening.


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