[tmtranscripts] Rio Rancho NM TeaM (08-31-03)

[Gerdean O Bowen]

DATE:                      August 31, 2003
LOCATION:            Rio Rancho, NM, TeaM
                                 The Bowen Townhouse
TEACHERS:            TOMAS & ANATOLIA
TOPIC:                    "The Abundance of Sonship"
T/R:                 Gerdean (for Tomas), Matthew (for Anatalia)
MUSIC:         CD: Van Morrison’s "In the Garden"
Thoroah:         "The fields are always wet with rain
                After a summer shower
                When I saw you standing
                Standing in the garden
                In the garden wet with rain
                You wiped the teardrops from your eye in sorrow
                As we watched the petals fall down to the ground
                And as I sat beside you
                I felt the great sadness that day
                In the garden
                And then one day you came back home
                You were a creature all in rapture
                You had the key to your soul and you did open
                That day you came back
                To the garden
                The olden summer breeze was blowin’ against your face
                The light of God was shinin’ on your countenance divine
                And you were a violet colour
                As you sat beside your father and your mother
                In the garden
                The summer breeze was blowin’ on your face
                Within your violet you treasure your summery words
                And as the shiver from my neck down to my spine
                Ignited me in daylight and nature
                In the garden
                And you went into a trance
                Your childlike vision became so fine
                And we heard the bell within the church we loved so much
                And felt the presence of the youth of eternal summers
                In the garden
                And as it touched your cheeks so lightly
                Born again you were and blushed
                And we touched each other lightly
                And we felt the presence of the Christ within our hearts
                In the garden
                And I turned to you and I said
                No guru no method no teacher
                Just you and I and nature and the Father 
                In the garden

                No guru no method no teacher
                Just you and I and nature 
                And the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost
                In the garden wet with rain
                No guru no method no teacher
                Just you and I and nature
                And the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost
                In the garden
                In the garden wet with rain
                No guru no method no teacher
                Just you and I and nature and the Father
                In the garden."
PRAYER: 
Matthew: Let us place ourselves in the presence of Jesus, the Christ. 
Master Teacher, we come before you today, happy and multiplied beyond our
usual numbers. The larger the family, the happier. That may not always be
the case, but in this case, it seems to be true. We encourage your
presence with us today, and not that it isn’t ordinarily, but we are more
mindful, more open and receptive to the gifts that you are to us and we
pray that we are to you and to our heavenly Parents who have made all of
us possible. We cherish the opportunity to become our full and complete
selves in you and with you, and rejoice in the fact that we are sons of
God, as you so well demonstrated—not in the masculine sense, but in the
offspring sense, we are sons of God. We are grateful and look forward to
the teachings that, through you, are brought to our awareness and
consciousness and are grateful to you for this teaching mission that you
have inaugurated and in and with your chieftain, Machiventa Melchizedek,
we are grateful and loyal students and look forward to the day when we
can spray in the ray of lights that you make present with us and within
us. For all time, we are grateful. Amen. 
Group: Amen.
TOMAS: Abundance is what we have here. Sheer abundance! Good afternoon,
my friends and associates. I am Tomas, in company with my co-worker
Anatalia, and a host of heavenly helpers who have come by to witness your
spiritual embrace and to be a part of the process of up-stepping the
heart and mind to seek truth, beauty and goodness in all things and in
all beings. Welcome, to you all, not only to this new abode, but you who
have come from afar to conjoin with this, your extended family. [Don and
Deborah visiting from Abraham’s Woods Cross group near Salt Lake City.]
I hesitate to introduce myself to you today as your "Teacher" in view of
the scribe who brought such profound value to your consciousness in the
music of Van Morrison, "No guru no method no teacher. Just us in the
garden." Well, I am a teacher by default, for I am older and therefore
(hopefully) wiser. But this is something you understand as well, for you
are all relatively mature individuals. You all know that the value of
experience compounds with the years. 
The point from the musical selection which I will take as a springboard
to open our conversation, stems from the scribe’s sadness at seeing those
who stood in the gray and dreary rain of the garden without understanding
the full benefit of the wet rain -- which is the Living Water -- the
sadness on the countenance of he or she who stands virtually outside the
garden because they know not the sublime abundance of sonship 
 sadness
for those who gullibly allow themselves to be sidetracked and derailed
into other and lesser realities the way that Nalda would have done were
it not for the Master, who returned her focus to the point at hand, and
that is to return to the garden awakened and reborn and in glory of all
that is. 
The value of prayer is pre-eminent here, for only through prayer are we
and you afforded a glimpse of how to proceed -- and whether to proceed,
in the face of the conditions presented that induce such sadness. It is
our good fortune, yes, to know the abundance of sonship, the fellowship
of the family of God, and our joy is a testimony to the endurance of that
reality for it does not waver, does not flicker with whims and the
passing of time. We would like to safely say that you who surround me
here are capable of convening in the spirit garden whether or not you are
transplanted into the Edenic environments you have opted to create and
assume for yourselves. 
This need not be a source of gullibility for you, dear ones. There are
many who have not the spirit foundation you have, whose worlds would
indeed collapse if something untoward should occur to their paradigm of
reality. It is when you can sit in your Garden of Eden no matter where it
is, and sense the association of the Father and Mother and allow Christ
consciousness to become key to your existence, that you have attained the
reality we enjoy and of which Brother Morrison speaks. 
You have a responsibility now that is incumbent on you to be even more
mindful of the sadness that surrounds you in your work in the field. You
who have seen the Master, who have known His love, such as we share, now
know that without this divine connection the lot of us would stand
outside in the dreary rain of isolation, waiting for the door to open –
not always understanding that the will to serve and the will to survive
are often gatekeepers at the same entrance. Now that you have
comprehension of eternal survival, you can have more compassion for those
whose view of life is more short-term. You can have a better parental
attitude toward the immaturity of your fellows who know not the greatness
of this spirit-born association. 
You are a light unto the world, my friends. Let us work on that light
shining in such a way as to illuminate the darkness and invite the folk
into their own garden, where they can return, reborn of their own spirit
in Christ, and sit with their father and mother, who is Our Father and
Mother, and thus our Family expands. It is correct, it is true. In this
place, this sacred place, there is no need for gurus, methods, or
teachers, for it is in the primary connection of Parent and child, Source
and offspring, that begins all and any other association or relationship,
but without that, there can be none. 
How is it, Tomas, that you can take such a joyous moment and bring in
sadness and talk about it for ten minutes, until we have all lost our
connection to the jubilance that we owned only moments ago? I will allow
Anatalia to respond.
ANATALIA: Welcome to our venue of choice places, people, and personality.
I speak to you in this obscure description, perhaps, only because of the
many personalities that go into the creation of any situation that one
may encounter. Namely what I am speaking of is the personality of Tomas
entering into the description of the garden and its otherwise multiple
dimensions or descriptions that one can derive from such a scene. 
The beauty that may be perceived by one as simple, straightforward and
undisguised may mean something more to a more insightful individual. Not
that the first vision is inaccurate or improper, but another individual
seeing the same scene may take the scene outside of these windows today,
and taking a visual view of it, may be able to take a deeper walk into
what that scene symbolizes, so that the scene that you witness outside of
the window today, you will each have your own reaction. It would not be
typical, nor identical, but if there would be a poll of your views, there
would be an overriding theme; however, another given personality and
perspective can take a deeper look into such a scene and may remember the
day that ones pet dog died, or whatever it may be, therefore taking the
obvious to you and turning it into a scene of sorrow and remorse. So for
my point of view, I share with you that – to once again use a cliché –
"beauty is in the eye of the beholder", for what you see and witness IS
based upon your experience and what emotional attachment you bring to
that which you witness, in addition to your personality which colors or
interprets that which you see. This is a description which I share with
you and bid you to consider it as one of various points of view.
If I may change the subject slightly to a more pertinent scene that you
see on the walls around you. These scenes are brought to you through
personality and perspective, as well as a message to be conveyed when
they were portrayed. This is something that each of you do in your daily
lives whether you know it or not. For good or for ill, each of you is
master of your palette. You present your feelings and your attitudes
through your personality out to and into the world you find yourselves
in. It is not a single action activity, mind you, because many times it
is what is being acted upon you that you find yourself in reaction to. It
is not purely a matter of choice as to how you go about your day trouble
free and unencumbered with other individuals’ perspectives presented or
forced upon you. 
All I am saying is that you, nevertheless, even though one may color your
world brown, dark gray, or even black at a moment’s notice, it is up to
you to use the colors available to you to color and to create that which
you wish to do with that as presented. For with the most moribund shade
of gray that I can imagine, one can paint a sunrise to overcome the
darkness, or a sunset to show the onset of dusk yet the retention of the
light prior to its being taken over by the absence thereof.
So it is in each of your minds that you have the choice to be happy,
content, or to the contrary. It is up to you to look at a park bench and
be grateful for a place to sit and take in the beauty or complain that
it’s not a couch inside a home that gives you shelter. Make that which
you have before you the cathedral of your heart and mind and there you
will find happiness and contentment, regardless of condition. I wish you
all songs to be sung and delight within your hearts, now and forever. As
the closing scene in many a Walt Disney production 
 the little bluebirds
flying together with ribbons in their beaks, tying a bow on your heart’s
desire
 I wish you all that is well and most of all, the love that is
deep within each of us. May you know it, live it, and share it wherever
you may go. Peace be with you, now and always.
Group: Thank you, Anatalia.
TOMAS: Be of good cheer, and share with us what you have been pondering
or experiencing – not to delve overmuch into trivial socializing, but to
express our value reach or insight into the living condition. (Long
pause) We are open to questions or comments; otherwise, we will leave you
"in the garden" to enjoy yourselves, knowing you are in good company. 
Elena: Well, you know, Tomas, you said "abundance" and I really feel like
"abundant". That is really the key word for me because I just have so
many things to be grateful for, and I feel like there are definitely
issues or challenges awaiting me in the next week but I feel like what
we’ve been given, it really does give us the ability to deal with
individual situations and to try to shed our light. So I really feel
grateful for what I get and the lesson was pretty sufficient. Usually I
do have comments or questions but I feel like I got everything.
Especially, with my family being here and my friends 
 I’m all happy as a
clam.
TOMAS: Yes, indeed. This was apparent! And this is why I directed your
attention to the sadness from recognizing those who are not experiencing
with you the abundance of life. Jesus himself said he comes to bring you
life and bring it more abundantly. That is qualitative and quantitative.
I think not so much as "more stuff," but a greater appreciation of what
it is to be a creature of time and space with a divine relationship woven
throughout your lives and undertakings. Thus you get to experience the
experiential gamut of having a need and setting out to utilize your
God-given intelligence to finding the solution to the problem and, having
attained that space or acquired that perspective, enjoying a sense of
accomplishment, and feeling good about the human and the divine part of
that process.
Does that individual who is mindful on a daily basis of the inner garden,
that very same garden that we have spoken of in terms of the hymn "In the
Garden" or the anthem "In the Garden," remember that those who stand
outside its gates are those which we seek to serve? There is nuance to
our messages today that gear you to the philosopher, Rodan of Alexandria,
as well as to the theory of the Seven Psychic Circles, for there is
little point in attempting to carry on a rapport of any substance with
those who have only begun the journey. 
And this is where you find your best value in your own ranks. This group,
for example, enjoys itself so much because you have so many things in
common, experientially and philosophically as well as spiritually – even
physically, so there is that rapport which you enjoy which is not
possible throughout the week with others. But like you say, Elena, having
this frame of reference and this "attitude of gratitude" with you as part
of your arsenal of spiritual tools, will enable you to effectively work
-- in the mines of the arena and in the minds of your human associates --
that level of Christ-consciousness they are able to absorb. Which will,
perhaps, not bring YOU to fullness of satisfaction, but when you have
such satisfaction at heart, it is not YOU who is at issue! And thus it is
easier to become self-forgetful in the sense that you concern yourself
less and less with your own needs and concern yourself more and more with
the true needs of those you serve.
We are not surprised at the silence that prevails.
Marian: I didn’t know if you were still talking. Is it okay to say
something?
TOMAS: It is okay. Speak!
Marian: Well, I thought you were still going on Elena. I’m ready. I’m
used to Abraham saying, "Is this helping?" and then it’s "Yes" and "Let’s
move on" so I am ready. Well, I was really intrigued by you saying the
gate that you stand at when you’re 
 let’s see, the will to survive and
the will to serve. And I just thought that was fascinating. For me, the
will to survive had to come first and then, as I came to sit at the
table, then the willingness to serve came in. So I like that. I don’t
have to worry about surviving now, so I am willing to serve, and it just
crops up all over the place, and whatever it is, I am glad to do it. 
I don’t – I am not really sad for my fellows. And I don’t mean to sound
tacky, but 
 I mean, I’m full of joy, and I’m groovin’ along, and I know
what I do, but back when I was in the total darkness and I didn’t know
what I know now, I still came along somehow, you know? So my hope is
that, like you say, if I’ve got some light that can shine and if a hand
reaches out, I want to be there to bring them along, the way people
brought me along when I was in total darkness. Like 

There’s this lady that called me on the phone, just before we left, and
you know, Don and I have been through two deaths in the past two months,
and we had just had our hands full, but even still we said, "Okay!" It’s
like 
 we know what to do, and we’re giving it, and we’re loving and
supportive, and there’s nothing we’ve come up against so far that we
can’t get through. But this lady called me out of the blue. She had this
miserable surgery and the most wretched darkness, the most miserable
place. And I told her once upon a time I had had quite a few surgeries
blah-blah and if she ever needed some help or some support to give me a
call, so here was the call. And she was so painted into this negative
corner – and I know what it’s like to be in that corner, so all I did was
show my experience. So I guess what I’m saying is, when it’s people’s
time to get help or reach for light or when they’re getting beams on
them, or when they’re desperate in their searching for their beingness, I
want to be there ready, willing and able to serve, since I had survived,
so 
 with such help, but I don’t 
 I mean, everybody will come along when
they’re ready and able. You know what I mean? So I don’t feel – I hope
that don’t mean I’m a loser person, that I don’t feel really sad for
people. I mean, I’m ready to be there if I can help them. What do you
think?
TOMAS: The "thought" that comes to me, dear one, is that you have
established your appropriate boundaries based on your capacities and you
have a method which works for you and which also serves; thus, you are on
your way. I wouldn’t worry at all about your perspective nor apologize
for it because I have every confidence that your path is spirit-born and
God-led and that while you may not be overly sympathetic, you are the
heart of soulful compassion. 
There are always those instances where a good challenge is the best
medicine. If you opt to challenge those who come to you for aid, it is a
fair chance that they have recognized in your personality that which you
will give them and they are ready to be challenged, perhaps to throw off
their cloak of infirmity, to rise up against the seeming injustice, and
pick up their bed and walk. But that is a case in point for your
personality gifts and skills. Thus everyone would not gravitate to you,
but those who recognize your personality modus operandi know that you are
a stalwart fountain of faith to which they may appeal if and when they
sense their own readiness. Some might find that unnecessarily callous or
seemingly uncaring. "Tough love" is like that. 
There are other values in what you express. To not be brought down by the
weight of the world is good, because if you are under the burden of
Atlas, then you are ineffective. But I draw upon the countenance of the
Master who, upon returning from Jerusalem and the Passover, paused
overlooking the city and wept with compassionate pity for those who lived
in darkness. That is a great motivator for some, but not necessarily for
all. This T/R tends toward relieving suffering, but that method also have
strengths and drawbacks, which any method will, as any personality can
proclaim, "you win some, you lose some."
But certainly my reference to the guardians of the gate, that of survival
or service, represent the twin powers of self will and divine will, which
is not a problem if it is the self’s will to do the divine will. It only
poses difficulty when they are opposed, and this is the case in most
mortals. They are not integrated with the divine sufficiently that they
would know how to distinguish the level of survival that is intended in
the analogy. To those who love the Lord, what does it matter if all
things temporal vanish? For in time all things temporal WILL vanish for
you, and can you still rejoice in the abundance of your being? Are you
still whole and complete as a personality, even without your methods,
gurus, and teachers? 
It is the Father’s will that we serve once survival is assured, but until
survival is assured, our service is at work. Is this making sense?
Marian: Oh, yeah! Thank you.
Paula: You know what I was thinking is that everyone in this room has so
much to be thankful for. We all have comfortable homes, good
relationships, and I find some of the opposite at my work at the
hospital, and it isn’t just the routine everyday thing that you find in
any hospital. I found that these people need somebody that they can talk
to, and for some reason, they talk to me, and I have heard some of the
most intimate things that you can imagine from people that I never knew
before! But they feel as if they have got to get it off their minds and
out in the open, and it has been something that is very fulfilling to me
because I feel I am not there just to do the routine work that you do in
a hospital, but that I am there for another purpose, that they need to
have somebody they can unload on and tell their troubles to, or their
problems, or their joys, and I hear all kinds of things like that, and
it’s a very, very fulfilling thing that I do. It’s only one day a week
but I enjoy it, for that reason, because anything that is just routine
and so forth would bore me to tears, but this is something that I really,
really enjoy doing and feel as if I’m there for a purpose.
TOMAS: Yes, your service is an expression of your will in harmony with
God’s will. You are a Listener. You have a gift of hearing the hearts of
those who come to you to express themselves. This is a divine gift,
indeed, one which few people elevate to the high art that it can become.
The fact that you work effectively with these people is evidence of the
divine will working with you, and this, too, is what brings such
tremendous satisfaction to you as a mortal worker in the field. You have
lifted up your work to a new dimension of reality, one that draws people
to you when they need to be heard. 
Each of you, if you think about it, have a method, a personality method
unique to you, developed over time, that serves. There is no point in
being humble about this; humility has enabled it! 
Marian: Can I follow up a little bit? Can’t we trust Father? I don’t mean
to say let’s sit in our living room and have people stop at your doorbell
and ring it and say, "Oh, Miriam, could you come help me?" And then if
I’m willing to serve, I’ll say, "Yeah, but 
 after supper" or whatever.
But, can’t we trust Father that some people might be drawn to me, to seek
me out for some help, but there’s lots of people that aren’t, but they
would be more attracted to Paula? Do you know what I’m saying? Isn’t that
why we’re all here with all of our different personalities, because we
all have different experiences and personalities that will be attractive
to others, and if we all basically shine Father’s light, that he’ll
figure it out – with their participation? Is that too simple? 
TOMAS: Yes, it is. You overlook the fact that those who are not working
within the divine will, but are working within self will, are erring at a
greater rate than you who have opted to try to pursue the path of greater
understanding. As you testified, in your dark days you bumbled along and,
thanks to God, found your way back to the path. But that is not the case
for everyone. Many are lost. Of course, in the eternal perspective, the
Adjuster of that mortal will be given another opportunity to fuse with
another human personality at some other point in time; however, that
particular personality’s opportunity is very largely lost to the vagaries
of evolutionary existence. 
Whatever is of value will be absorbed by the Supreme, but the great gift
that you have that you don’t seem to appreciate and realize is that your
personality – when conjoined with the divine Indwelling Adjuster – will
create that immortal soul which allows you – YOU 
 Each of You 

Personally 
 to survive. With Your Personality. Quirks and all. Not just
the God within you, but you yourself. 
And this is where the importance is in the urge to live and the will to
live. Those who lose the will to live or who get lost from that desire to
survive are essentially choosing nothing over something, and the phrase
you might appreciate here is that "Nature abhors a vacuum." We rush to –
we flock to – those who have become void, so that they can be filled, so
that they can be filled by a greater reality than the one that failed
them before. In this you ARE able to assist. It is here that you are
called to offer your services on behalf of the Divine.
The refinements are preferences. After the will to live is made, it is
pretty much a classroom of those who choose to learn and advance and
those who would rather just enjoy recess. Everyone enjoys recess; don’t
get me wrong. But there are those among you, even, who are your soul
companions, who have a tendency, a personality tendency to choose to
shirk their responsibilities -- their own personality "talents" -- that
they have been given, to defer to someone else to do for them. 
While those individuals are not important enough to turn yourself inside
out over, inasmuch as they have the Spirit of Truth; it is simply up to
them to use it. Those who are truly lost are greatly aided by your
conscientious commitment to find them and to introduce them to their own
Father who lives within. The rest is social games. 
Father can take care of his children and work out that relationship once
that relationship is established, but unless and until that relationship
is established, it is indeed self will running riot and making one poor
choice after the other. Well, that should be no surprise to you. Just
look around at your world and see how effective it is to live this life
without divine guidance – Not Very! 
What else?
Matthew: I just had the thought of, What kind of faith system did you
have on the world that you came from? You talked about your world at one
time but I don’t remember from the faith perspective and how was that
conveyed to you? In the universal sense? Or pertinent to your world?
TOMAS: We were very isolated in our organism of life. We recognized –
much as the twins did in your planetary history – that we would not
survive if we stayed with the animalistic tribes from which we stemmed.
Thus we isolated ourselves in a mind set that we needed something better,
something greater, something higher, and while we did not have a
particular religious philosophy, we had a sense that without something
greater than what we came from, we would be doomed to experience the same
tribal barbarism as was around us. 
We developed a keen sense of prayer. Everyone, I think it’s safe to say,
in our community, our civilization, was devout in that regard. It was a
part of our culture to engage in all manner of prayerful activities, but
we had no knowledge of to whom we were addressing our prayers. In my
immediate family, for example, with my wife Janus and our children, we
engaged in prayer daily and regularly, as if we were of a religious order
that paused three, four, five times a day to engage informal prayer. We
engaged in a similar indulgence and we did this commonly, throughout our
culture, our community. 
We never developed a formal religion, but we developed a terrible
dependency upon something greater than ourselves, and that Something led
us into ways of living which were effective for us and which, indeed,
kept us from falling into the abyss of barbarism. Does that answer?
Matthew: It does. It’s interesting. Thank you for sharing that.
Elena: I have one more question. I am in just a little bit of a quandary
about the – you are talking about the people who are lost and about
serving, and I don’t have any problem with figuring out how to serve;
there are those opportunities in each day which afford themselves. But,
with respect to how active a role you take in that, I guess, that service
– because in the past you just said, "Just let your light shine and that
really will guide you." That seems a little bit less ..
TOMAS: Relevant?
Elena: 
 well, yeah. I don’t
 yeah. Is that an active enough role what I
do or should we be going out there and being crusaders or something. I
don’t know. Misguiding people as we go.
TOMAS: You are seeing the reality of your own growth. What was once
inspirational truth has diminished to interesting but not complete
information. This is the way reality works, and no, of course, you do not
suddenly develop the attitude of a crusader for this silly question is
already answered in your consciousness by understanding that a crusade is
more ineffectual than effectual, but you are also enlivened adequately to
recognize a new truth now and again. Perhaps this new truth that you
heard today is one that you will foster as worthy of study for its
morontial content and thus enhance your own soul as well as the evolution
of Urantia’s citizenry. 
But yes, you are ready for a new perspective and responsibility based on
your plateau of acquisition, not only in the material sense but in the
psychic sense as well. You don’t want life to become trivial and a piece
of cake, as that would foreshorten your eternal career as your beliefs
crystallized into nothingness. Thus you guard against your choices of
service or survival as you step out on each new plateau of existence, as
you reassess with each new psychic circle. 
A case in point is, the Father looks upon all creation and sees only
those who choose to do his will and those who do not. Do you think he
sees those who do not want to do his will? Or does he see only those who
choose to do his will? There is a question, a philosophic question for
you to ponder throughout the week, much as the question, "What is the
sound of one hand clapping?" for we stand at the gate, at the forefront
of a new era in our very existence here. Yes, in the Rio Rancho TeaM as
well as in the Teaching Mission as well as in the greater, global
Correcting Time. 
I believe we are about ready to be about the Father’s business in a new
fashion. And so, in great gladness and gratitude for the efforts that you
have expended on behalf of your own soul and into the hearts and lives of
those you touch, let us be on our way. We’ll carry on again soon.
Anatalia and I embrace you fondly and wish you well. Walk with God and
all his agents as you go about your work in the world this week. Amen.
Farewell.
Group: Thank you.
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