[tmtranscripts] Rio Rancho NM TeaM (03-14-04)

[Gerdean O Bowen]

DATE:                         03-14-04
LOCATION:                 Mary Jo’s Mansion World
TEACHERS:                 ANATOLIA & TOMAS &
                                        JESUS/CHRIST MICHAEL
Topics:                          Learning to Go Within
                                     "The Father and I are One"

T/R’s:                 Matthew and Gerdean

MUSIC:                 Elena on Piano: "Ah, Holy Jesus!"

PRAYER: 

Matthew: Let us place ourselves in the presence of Jesus, the Christ.

Master Teacher,

When the student is ready, the teacher arrives. We, as students, await
your tutelage and seek your comfort and your personal presence in our
lives, as you guide us in the everyday as well as the mysterious and the
eternal. We place ourselves within you and before Our Father as we
continue on our way, which helps unravel daily mysteries in the Eternal
Presence. For which is everything from simplicity to sublimity. And we
are with you as we pray you are with us, which is understood.

We thank you for this Teaching Mission and for the opportunity to make
contact with teachers that prove to us that we are part of the eternal
oneness, and that lessons can be taught endlessly and with merit and
reason behind each and every syllable, let alone the unity of the message
itself. We appreciate that and each other and look forward to the
teachings that are made known to us today. With all of the other
intentions of our heart and minds that lie before you, we are forever
grateful.  Amen.

TOMAS: Good afternoon, I am Tomas, your host. I will not be a presenter
of a lesson today, but will instead engage you in meditation exercises
later in the meeting, so as to allow you time and opportunity to begin
the practice of meditation such that you will be able to T/R in the near
future. 

Any art or craft or skill requires some preparation, and so today we
shall begin with the preparatory steps toward our goal, then -- as was
prayed, "when the student is ready the teacher will appear" -- you, my
beloved students, will be ready, and you will appear to teach those who
appear before you in search of food from the divine Source of our
sustenance. 

Without hesitation now, I relinquish the floor to the Teacher for the
day. I ask Matthew to avail himself to the prevailing energies so as to
serve you in today’s formal study. Matthew?

Matthew: Thank you.

ANATOLIA: This is a fine day in which to meet and greet one another on
our new venue for learning and appreciation. I, Anatolia, am happy to be
with you today for these and all reasons, large and small. 

Much as with the concerns of our hearts and minds for things of smallness
and largeness, because all is life, from the smallest element to the
largest being, how much spirit does it take to enliven a being? How much
being does it take to present a spirit? These are part of the mysteries
in which your opening prayer offer, for I wish for you to consider the
concepts of truth, beauty and goodness, relative to the presence of
spirit, and how that affects your life. 

This may seem to be a huge question, but one is which I wish to take you
into a deeper understanding of your life within. So if you will bear with
me long enough, I wish you to consider a journey that I will take you on,
into the inner world. And as you may have heard it said, the path to the
life in the outer reaches, is through the inner world. So one must go
within in order to go without; to be centered within, in order to know
what is truth without or beyond the limitations of your physical
presence.

Close your eyes, if you will, and relax your body from the top of your
head to the bottoms of your feet ~ by simply feeling all of the tension,
stress, concern, difficulties, roll from your being ~ from the top of
your head to the bottom of your feet ~ as a rippling brook travels along
the rocks -- it smoothes, it caresses, it surrounds every inch of that
object. 

Let your troubles float away as you feel your body relaxing from the top
~ each inch at a time ~ rolling down your neck 
 and your shoulders 

your arms, your torso 
 your hips, your legs 
 and down through your
calves, through your feet and out your toes, as if your toes were each a
spigot of relaxing energy.

And allow yourself to feel content and at one with the security that you
know is within you, that will allow you to breathe freely, without
restriction and without restraint. Feel a pattern develop within your
breathing that lets you know you are one with all that is, and the breath
that enters your body and leaves your body is the divine cycle. The
breathing cycle that you experience is that which is part of the
universal cycle of life.

When you do this you will know that you are part of a larger mystery of
life that enables you to recognize that which you are experiencing
consciously at this moment, for what you are experiencing is part of that
sublime settled state of being that seldom comes to your mind unless you
give it consciousness – somewhat along the line of "I think, therefore I
am" which is to recognize the reality of being. 

Allow yourself to do this as often as you can, but without restraint or
imposing another discipline. Allow yourself to do this at least once per
day, when you establish the time for doing so, or when you have finally
reached the time of being able to stop and let go. For it is in letting
go that you let your being be its best, for you are operating the
machine, otherwise, this allows you to recognize the machine and give it
an internal tune-up. 

It is necessary and essential for your well being and for reaching higher
levels of consciousness, for to reach higher levels of consciousness, one
must find it within. There is no pill, no drug, and no offer to buy,
which gives you the opportunity to gain this insight, without stopping to
smell the roses. The scent is there to be appreciated, but one must stop
to smell the essence to appreciate its beauty. 

This hence is the symbol for the lotus blossom, that symbol of going
within and unfolding -- to be at one with yourself and with All-That-Is.
Therefore, you will find many answers to the mysteries that plague you,
or to the mysteries that challenge your understanding of why or how
something is.

Let us now relax, as we have prepared, and focus on the notion that "My
Father and I are one." And for the next five minutes, at least, not
prolong or beginning purposes, but at least that long allow yourself to
experience what focusing on that thought, feeling or concept brings you.
"The Father and I are one."

[Long group stillness.]

ANATOLIA: Is everyone able to come back from where you were, or are? If
it’s all right with you, then, we can begin to talk about any experience
you felt and what you believe this exercise was about. So, for discussion
purposes, if anyone would like to volunteer an experience you had, we can
talk about it with others. Anyone wish to share?

Elena: This time – more easily than when I tried on my own – it was
easier to clear my mind of everything. I have a difficult time clearing
my mind of other things, and this time it was easy to do that. I don’t
know why but it was great.

Esmeralda: In breathing and thinking, "Father and I are One" – the
strange part about that for me was, usually when I do this sort of thing
I usually see all kinds of things immediately. Light bursts and then all
kinds of things. This time, I didn’t until at least half way through. But
then I do that all the time when I try to practice stillness.

ANATOLIA: It is desirable to set the stage, for that is what work on the
altar is all about. With any of your experiences with altar work, it is
literal and figurative, but to alter your state of mind and to present an
altar for the acceptance of your place within God’s life, one could say
then, "Are you the altar, or are you preparing the way for an altar to be
built?" Any way you fashion it, you need to begin to set the altar for
the concentration of recognizing who you are in the life of being and
your role in it. No one can take your place in your birth, as no one can
take your place in your death, for it is truly your life. Not in
separation or isolation, but in oneness with all that is, so one must set
the altar and your preparations will follow.

Anyone else?

Gerdean: I enjoyed this group stillness a great deal. Probably much like
Elena, we are scheduled here today, to be here, so there is nothing else
– my computer is not there, I don’t have to worry about ironing or
anything, and – with the energy that everyone else brings to it, it was
really nice to find myself launched into the dimension where I like to
be, readily. It was like being lifted up out of the intellect or the
mental arena, beyond metaphysical, even, right into the spirit, which is
a release, it’s a break-through, and it feels great. But after a while,
being in there, enjoying the "Father and I are One" which is generally
manifested (in me) as energy, not so much personality today but just
energy – I started to get restless because I wanted to do something with
the energy, (yet it was typical that Father would send me out to do
something), so, it was good. I enjoy your leading us in this.

ANATOLIA: It is an opportunity for each of us to experience another part
of ourselves, one of which is somewhat intimate, but yet in a group
setting, which is a new opportunity for each and every one of us. A
thought, as you were speaking, Gerdean, is – in the opportunities that
you have to focus on whatever concept, it is much like a focal point in
concentration, that rather than to void your mind, which is one
legitimate concept of meditation, for the novice it is difficult to
conceive of the nothingness of everything, therefore the essence of
everything. Very difficult concepts to visualize, let alone experience.
But focus on something that brings you together, internally, with
recognition of that, that you may yet have to seek in terms of the truth
for yourself, that the Father and I are one allows you to reach out
beyond your own thought processes or patterns, to a focal point that
gives you a place to reach to, to not have to let your own mind filter
itself, but to shoot an arrow at a target, and what better one than to
contemplate the essence of you, which is part of the All-that-is. 

In your doing such exercises, I suggest that you allow this to happen for
as long as you are comfortable in your beginning stages, and as you
progress, if you feel that you are losing consciousness or awareness of
your surroundings and may end up falling asleep or not regaining
consciousness, call upon your seraphim to awaken you before you would
lose concept of the cake in the oven or whatever it will be that will
require your eventual attention, so is there anything else before we
conclude?

Maria: What’s a seraphim?

ANATOLIA: [In this context] a guardian angel.

Elena: When you’re losing concentration, what would you suggest? I mean,
would just continuing to focus back on the thought process that you’re
doing – like a number of things could be used, but to try it for a while
or just kind of hang in there and try to concentrate until you get your
concentration back?

ANATOLIA: The best way is to refocus your mind. If losing concentration,
it is nothing more than an indication that you need to get realigned, so
to speak, a technique would be to form another concept and see where that
takes you, or, if you feel obliged to pursue the concept you chose
initially, or is given as an assignment like "the Father and I are One"
to refocus, reconnect with your breathing. Reinitiate awareness of your
breathing pattern and get back in with the cycle that allows you to be
who you are and to once again connect with the Source of All-that-is. 

Does this help any?

Elena: Yes, thank you. 

Thoroah: I see the mantra of "the Father and I are One" as that focal
point that helps us from wandering mentally. And the breathing, I find if
I can at some time take the time to just deep breath and concentrate on
my breath, that that in itself does the relaxing trick. So I’m assuming
that the mantra is just that focal point, that target that you mentioned,
and probably breathing is the essential part.

ANATOLIA: Correct. It is the rhythm that enables you to be unmindful of
yourself, in other words, that enables you to lose your
self-consciousness and allows you to get, or acquire, a rhythm that is
part of the cycle of life, that enables you to reach in closer or deeper
to your Essence. This is, after all, where you are going. 

You can look at it as above or below, but it is going to a crystal clear
(color it blue, if you will) deep well, that is your essential Being,
that is as warm as a bath, as a young child with the security of your
parent giving you the Saturday night bath, or whatever picture you can
imagine, that is the warm secure waters of your inner being, that is your
soul, that you are making contact with, that resurrects your eternal life
consciousness. 

This is what is being called forth when you meditate. It is that oneness
that you seek with All-that-is. And after all, what are you, in essence,
other than an expression of the eternal Source of All-that-is, each in
its own unique ability to be who you are made to be. This is what you
make contact with. So if you are able to massage a muscle to relax it,
you are certainly able to massage your inner being, to be at one with it,
as this is the open door to All-that-is. 

This is where you will find eternity, both here and forevermore, for in
the time of physical passing, what your eyes are seeing now is what you
will see through soul or spirit. Your essence will be that which you
cannot touch or feel but what is. I invite you to cherish this
opportunity to explore the unlimited within for the sake of your mental
and spiritual health, as this too is as important as any nutrient. And I
venture to say more so, however you need to function where you are and
this enables you to be aware of the house in which you live. Anything
else?

Paula: I’ve always had a heck of a time in the silence. I don’t like it.
It scares me. And the only time I like it is when I have a headache, or
when I’m getting ready to say my prayers at night.

ANATOLIA: Why is that?

Paula: Darned if I know. 

ANATOLIA: What do you find with the headache? Does it help it go away?

Paula: Oh, yeah. Because I don’t want any noise around me when I’ve got a
headache, so I appreciate it being quiet. Otherwise, it’s kinda spooky
and I don’t like it. I always wonder, if it’s real quiet in the house, if
Carl’s mad at me. But usually he isn’t, so then it all clears up. It
isn’t silent any more. We’re laughing. And that’s a lot better than
silence.

ANATOLIA: It is simply being comfortable with yourself that is important,
and whether you need a reminder, in silence, of what true security is,
this is what you are being invited to explore, of true security, for
being alone can be extremely frightening, and a feeling of being
abandoned, however being totally conscious, or as conscious as you can be
of who you are in truth is what real security is all about; however, like
the psalm of old, you can go into battle with arrows and slings being
slung around you but have no fear for you are protected and guided in all
ways and nothing is able to disturb your inner calm. This may be
something you seek or seek not, but you are invited to consider the
possibilities of what security is. 

Anyone else?

Know that what we have begun today is a step toward sharing of ourselves
in the security with others, to know that nothing will harm you, and that
only the Father and we are one. This is my sharing for today, and I am
grateful for the opportunity to share this learning with you. May we
continue on the way toward inner enlightenment. Peace be with you.

Group: Thank you, Anatolia. Thank you very much.

TOMAS: Your host returns to praise the concept of teamwork and my
teammate, Anatolia, who mastered the technique of teaching that brought
you to this point -- the vital point of connection between your soul self
and the Source of your soul self, the eternal God, the Universal Father. 

There are some comments I have, in the context of your investigations
thus far, one of which is: the stillness to worship the divine and to
find this connection is a precursor to T/Ring. You cannot transmit what
you do not have, if you cannot access what is in there, and therefore you
must learn to open yourself up to the Spirit. When you do this, indeed
you will open yourself to the floodgates, to all manner of apparitions
and energies of long ago, lodged in your various conscious states, that
may seek to emerge, that may need to be released in order for you to find
that sanctity. 

However, the opposite is true is well, that if you, in your longing to
return to the Father, seek Him out and find succor within, He will
protect you from those slings and arrows, at least until such time as you
have been sufficiently strengthened in your own constitution to deal with
those false perceptions that would give rise to those fearsome feelings
such as Paula mentioned when what is truly "in there" is the still pool
of living waters which will provide you satisfaction and peace such as
you have never known. 

But, again, it is a process. There are millions of people, many people,
too many people, who in fear of quietude and indeed in fear of God
Himself, are in a process of filling their hearts and minds with the
stimuli of sounds, so as not to have to endure the panic of potentially
being face-to-face with yourself - or, being face-to- face with God -
which, in a theosophic way, can be regarded as the same thing. 

There are lessons, however, to be learned in this process, (after the
recognition that avoiding the process is not going to provide the
solution your soul seeks), and we will deal with those, hopefully, as
time goes by. It is not necessary to set aside every contortion of
conditioning in order to access the true, the beautiful and the good
within you. Therefore, I am not suggesting you wait until you are
perfect, no, for in that case we would never have a mouthpiece for the
Master. But that you come to know yourself, including the mind, and the
various layers of consciousness that you possess, and so put to rest
those apparitions of unreality and illusions which bring you fear, in
order for you to grasp the concept of the indwelling God. 

For once you have gained awareness of your conscious connection to
divinity, it is possible then to discern what He is not, or how He varies
from individual to individual in His personality manifestation. In this
way you open up your universe greatly, not only to the personalities
throughout the cosmos who would welcome you to your cosmic neighborhood
and to the Family of God in infinity, but you will find God in the faces,
in the eyes, and in the actions of those you encounter, much more
vividly, extensively and compassionately than you would by a mere
intellectual acceptance of their being children of God. This is a
personal experience. 

And it will be for you to practice this experience, conscientiously,
throughout the weeks ahead. In a month, when we meet back here, we will
have an occasion to discuss the difference between your relationship with
your inner divine font and the personalities of others, in becoming aware
of others, in energy and in consciousness. Rather than be frightened of
their presence, be enthralled by the fact that you are learning to see
with eyes to see the fine points of universe existence. Those other
energies are enabling you to perceive outside yourself. Only one who is
secure in himself can see from beyond himself, from the detached
perspective that will be required for you to be able to set aside your
own interpretation of what it is to the interpretation of the visitor,
the teacher, the otherness of life in the universe.

Do you have any questions as to this technique of establishing stillness?
I sense you do, but you are not asking, so let us apply ourselves then
experientially. It is in the experiential application of what you have
yet to learn that the questions are formulated. 

Would you like, as an experiment, to experience another moment of
quietude in order for you who are aware of God in your superconscious
reality to try to attempt to become aware of the "otherness" of others in
the universe who may be embracing you, surrounding you, tapping you on
the shoulder, or otherwise prompting you to acknowledge their existence?
Perhaps your guardian seraphim. Perhaps myself or Anatolia or Jesus.
Let’s take that moment and see if you can feel the presence of others.
Fear not. You are in good company. 

[Another session of stillness.]

MICHAEL: Gentle souls, this is your elder brother, Michael. I come to you
today in your quietude to bring you my loving presence while you are open
and vulnerable. Let me come in with my love for you and impress upon you
my eternal devotion to your growth and happiness in the Father’s kingdom.
Your needs are met, your desires are fulfilled, your wants are arranged,
by me and the Divine Minister, the Mother Spirit, who protects you
through your seraphim and other ministering spirits. Have no fear. 

Carry me with you in your soul, in your conscious space of connection
with divinity. You have knocked and I have opened and we are one. In this
understanding, there is nothing which can beset you that I do not share
in completely. With this understanding there is nothing you cannot tell
me and come to me about which I will not hear and resolve on your behalf.
Through your cooperation and reciprocating love for me, I and you
together will bring peace to Urantia. 

I know it is said that I bring not peace but a sword, but this sword is
not for destroying the good; it is for cutting off the useless parts of
life that have hung around, clung to you, because of the nature of life
itself. As the snake molts its skin and the leaves fall from the trees in
season, so will we enable your world and mine to let go of that which no
longer serves, in order to embrace the resurrection of life which lies
ahead, inherent in your very limbs, flowing through your spirit veins, to
bring nourishment, spiritual food to those who know me not and who
languish in their isolation of alienation due to their belief that the
Father is far away and lo! He lives with you, as we see and feel this
moment, beautiful brothers and sisters, and humble children of God our
Father. What a delight to spend some time with you today. I am a
reflection of the joy that resides within you. Come to me and I will give
you rest. 

I return you to your teachers and to yourselves for your celebration of
life, in and through each other. 

Dear children, farewell.

Group: Thank you.

TOMAS: And I, Tomas, have no further words to say, so let us be on our
way.
Group: Thank you, Tomas. 
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